Replying to Making friends in skiing

yo whats up all.
some of you know that I struggled a lot a while ago and i wanted some thoughts from you all. I am in a position in the ski industry and I do like the job a lot, very passionate about it. I also have worked on getting professional help for the depression. I am struggling though with a few things. I have also tried to work on making friends and it hasn't been a great experience. Maybe this is a me thing but i feel like social connections make me very anxious. I struggle with a few mental/emotional issues and am very open about this in person. While skiing is a passion, the community often leaves me invalidated and alone. I also MTB and its the same thing. any ideas?