Do me a favor and read your own post to yourself. Does this sound healthy?
I know it’s tough, especially after 5 years, but it sounds like you need to get out of that and enjoy your life.
It will eat you alive.
270on420outWorking 40- 50 hours a week and living an hour away from each other we didn’t get to see each other a whole lot to begin with.
Ski season came and went every year, and every year I skied less and less. I went from averaging 50-60 days a year to maybe 20 if I was lucky.
Eventually I just started to dread winter because I knew it was just going to be another season of fighting every other weekend and being disappointed by how little I got to ski. This also permeated into other aspects of my life. I completely quit skateboarding after being obsessed with it more than skiing for 5 years.
I live the same week every week. I go to work. Spend the weekend with the girlfriend, and do it all over again the next week.
i am completely fucking miserable. Part of me wishes I never got into this relationship and im seriously considering ending it this winter.