Have you ever felt like just throwing down everything and saying 'fuck this' and then giving up on everything. Ive been so depressed lately things just havent been going well. I got a ski trip to keystone for christmas and my parents are threatening on cancelling because i have a d in biology. I have a 3.1 GPA, i am an average student. But i just dont get biology and i have done everything in my power to try and fix the grade, but it just doesnt work. This past week my girlfriends mothers best friend died and she and Jane were very close. Ever since then Jane hasnt been herself, now i know that this is normal but it kills me to see her like this and its bringing me down. It just seems like nothing is really going my way, i am getting pissed about the stupidest things lately and i just feel so fucking trapped at school like i dont belong there. I really need this vacation, and if my parents say that i cant go, im going to give up on everything and just float through the rest of high school because acually trying hasnt gotten me anywhere. Sorry i needed to vent...
i dont really have a life, but i am lazy. and i got sick of weeding through all you peoples shit cause... basically im smarter than you.
- Crystal-Needs-a-Park