Replying to Just... How??

Yo this is my first year skiing park, got the blends for it and cant do shit lol. All i can do is 180, these are my first pair of skis and they are taller than me(178 and im 173) i dont know if this is why i find them heavy and cant spin more than 180s. Maybe im just weak but i cant ollie high enough and they dont feel confortable at all. I see a whole bunch of edits and people throw 360s, ollies, butters as nothing. I was told that blends were one of the softest skis out in the market. Is it the skis? Am i just a tiny btch??