freestyler540Well theabortionator, how many have you had? severity and intervals? Just curious about age too. You could be getting the first symptoms of CTE. Severe concussions may cause the brain to bruise and scar as repetitive hits could cause swelling. When scar tissue forms, the surrounding neurons are disabled; leading to memory loss, sensory confusion and coordination.
Another possibility is you may have blood clots in the brain that haven been diagnosed. What has your physician/neurologist told you?
My touring brother been knock out on a few occasions with severe concussions. Last one was 2 years ago right in front of me. I have been following his progression and have noticed he has the first signs of CTE, but symptoms have not progressed. First things I have noticed a few months after the impact is lack of emotional control, depressive thoughts, addictive behaviors and poor concentration. We spent a lot of time together over the years and I can safely say he has recovered quite well. I do see the signs when he begins to drink, otherwise when he's baked as fuck or fully sober, he's 100%.
The trick is avoiding the degeneration. If I can relate your memory problems to mine when Im baked 24/7, there isnt a whole lot that can be done to improve cognition. Your doing it right so far. However, there are exercises I do when I sober up to be able to go back to work to regain short term memory faster.
- Every day, tell a friend or a roomate the story of your day in complete detail. It will help jog the short term memory by storing it in long term because you are using those memories. Write in a diary at the end of the day, it can take as much time as brushing your teeth. Look at it like a logbook.
- Concentration is a must. Talk to yourself often to help recall small actions. Try to feel similarities in routine activities; when you loose track of a conversation, what was the topic before it. Take a few seconds to pause and recall what that topic was and sometime it may fall into place. If you cant remember an event, try to recall what happened before the event and after the event...sometimes the memory is there, but cant be pulled into consciousness.
- Read a thought provoking article or book and try to analyze how it affects you when you are done. Personally I love philosophy. then discuss with people around you that have knowledge in the subject. It will help you better understand and memorize information.
- Stay cardiovascular fit by finding side sports. What helped my buddy was ski touring every day, mountain biking, expedition hiking, rock climbing, running... anything that made him excited to come outside.
Remember that living the fast life doesnt last forever. But your best years are never behind you. Never regret anything and you can always compensate for problems. Just have to adjust and know about limitations.
Perfect timing to pull iver for gas and check the old phone.
Im not sure as far as amount honestly. Both with the grey area of what constitutes a concussion and simply not remembering.
I've had 2 pretty bad ones. The one is still probably the most hilarious thing that wasn't good but tou have to laugh at yourself. I had a weird month ish or so after. Had severe headache for a year ish and then less severe for maybe 4-6months. I remember yelling at a bouncer in NYC for taking my Ibupropen away. I was super allergic to cigs. Like the smell from a cig would trigger a wicked headache. Some headaches totally in their own. Idk how often. Maybe every other day?
2nd one in 2014 it was super fucked. I had limited cordination. I would use the walls to help stay balanced walking, drop things because i wasnt gripping it as much as I thought. All the sudde. Be in a store or place and not now how I got there or why, ir even what store it was. Talking to people then stairing off and being like"wait, were we just talking? "
I couldnt lay down. I bought new pillows but the weight of my head felt like it was crushing itself. I had to shuffle my feet or tip toe because my footsteps were like the impact you get if you jump off something huge and land on your feet, but still jars your brain. If i stepped iff the curb and planted my foot wrong i would see stars and feel dizzy. Those would go away within minutes to an hour tops.
My friend was saying I got knocked out in a chinese downhill but I didnt remember that.
Broke my helmet at a big air and was really dizzy and shit but didnt get knocked out.
I jumped down the staies in my house when i was 12 and hit my hesd on a sharp ceiling and then fell down the stairs. Not sure if that was concussion or bloodloss or shock but was yelling at people to let me sleep.
Then probably 10 to 15 of your normal, smash your head hard and get a little woozy but feel better right after or that day.
Idk. So maybe like 4?
Went to a neurologist for the one in 2014 and he basically said " we cant do anything so good luck and get fucked "
Found out from my roommate a few years later that he had done all kinds of things with his doc. He had $ and good doctors, i was in some basic ass plan. Idk if thats relevant or my doc was just a dick.
I do try to keep reading and learning. Since i forget everything there are some 10-13 hours docs on early American history Ive watched another 5 or so times since then. I forget a lot of it but its exciting to learn it even if i already knew it.
Oh fuck. Scary thing. After the 2014 one. Maybe 5 months after. Watched django with my roommate. I hated it. The mext day it was on again, asked if he wanted to watch it. He thought i was joking. He couldnt convince me that I had watched i with him the day before. I watched it again and made the same comments and literally nothing in the whole movie seemed remotely familiar like when you say "oh yeah, i do remember this part"
He was completely serious and thats sll that convince me i had seen it.
I jut made a note to myself yesterday to right down some of the ridiculous stories/adventures before I forget them. Stuff thats all either illegal or immoral or whatever but just to right it out.
I might use an old lapt top and make that a journal. I type fast when im not on a phone like now and its therapeutic. Ive written things by hand but its only if i wake up or feel somehing so strongly i need to just let it poor into the paper.
I hope things dint get too much worse. I really have been being careful when i ski or in anything.
I did notice a huge irritability, i would snap at people. I pushed a girl in a crowd once because she kept going in and out and knocking through everone. It was crazy because i never would have snapped like that. My friend in hs made fun of me because would say im pissed but be half smiling. I never was agressive and i could tell things were weird.
That luckily mellowed out a ton depending on which aspects and other stuff i adjusted to.
Its just wild sometimes stuck losing everything. Looking for everything I own, i buy things multiple times becausr i forget or cant find it. Its a huge pain in the ass but worse makes you feel legit crazy.
To the point i even have thought about looking into finding a place where I could work but not get paid directly. Just have it go to the place, they give me a small amount of cash, have a room or apt there and my work goes towards that. Something where i dont have to worry about everything.
Thats crazy to think about though for someone whos driven 3 or 400k miles and hit something countries, that i feel i might do better in an envirnment so structure and repetitive, without adventure.
Idk shit just scares the fuck out of me sometimes. I kind of ignore it and try to just kick it with friends and go on random adventures to escape but it scares me.
Idk if that was super long and meadering or if i responded to everything but i need to get back on the road. Ill check this later though.
