Replying to Skiing as an outlet for depression, anger, stress.

I have recently found myself tapping into traumatic memories while skiing and using them to my advantage. I think about all the people who wronged me and made my childhood so lonely and unenjoyable... And it has turned skiing into an angry, tough, stress relieving meditation instead of a normal hobby.

It has made my style of skiing faster, more technical, possibly dangerous... And I've been told it's super unique. I wouldn't say it is healthy to think about that stuff so often, but it feels so good to let it out through actions rather than words. Do any of you feel like skiing has become more than a hobby due to similar situations and experiences?