Deepskierskiing is my oulet for every emotion I have.
At first I started skiing with my friends when I was having fun. Then I started skiing when I was sad. Sometimes I would even ski if I felt completely indifferent. It got to the point where I was skiing all the time. Tired, energized, happy, sad, cold, warm, it didn't even matter.
I even started sneaking in laps before or after work. Over time some of my good ski friends just quit all together. You would think that might have been a wake up call for me, but it didn't even stop me.
It got so bad even when I couldn't ski I was thinking about skiing. I woke up one morning in my bed with all my ski gear on(boots included) that was a real low point for me. I was just trying to survive the summers in hopes for a good winter. The food began to taste the same, the drinks tasted bland, without skiing what was the point?
Finally I came downstairs for breakfast late one summer morning and my entire family were sitting down along with some of my good friends. My mom had tears running down her face as she sniffled and tried to give a light smile. I shuffled through the kitchen in my ski boots and grabbed a seat in the corner. Possibly overdressed for the weather but in boy scouts we were always told to be prepared. A freak 3' snowstorm in July might be unlikely, but you never know right?
They had pictures and stories filled with memories of when I was young. How I was always such a great kid and they never could have seen this coming. Then one day me and my friends tried skiing. It was just one time at the sledding hill. What could possibly happen?
This went on for quite some time, and I really did try and listen, but the more they talked about skiing the more I just wanted to go. I craved it, I longed for it. Finally I just couldn't take it any more.
I stood up and walked toward the fridge, my boots knocking of my boots tore through the awkward silence like gunshots. As I opened the freezer door I turned to them and said "Mom, I know you care about me but this is something I love and you can't stop me" I grabbed 2 full trays of ice cubes and a 3/4 full bag left over from my brothers camping trip and shuffled toward the door.
I could hear their muffled cries through the window as I crunched down the ice and dragged out my rail. I almost felt bad for a second as I was nearing the top of my drop in. Then I clicked into my skis and all of that bullshit instantly fell away. A warm summer breeze began to pick up as I dropped in without a care in the world.