That wasn't deep... but it's still nice to know there's people thinking.
Nowadays, most of the people don't use their brains, they're just machines responding to 'needs', and if u punch them, they cry, but if u take their money away, they die. Nevermind that...
It's curious, but I was thinking too, and sometimes it's like if I didn't want to think anymore, cause it makes me realise (or should I say remember)how bad, how cruel, how stupid we are. But it's ok, I still can smoke from this nice pipe I got yesterday and forget who I am, what I am, and why I am not skiing right now.
So, you were thinking, and you said that we should always be seeking self-improving. Ok, maybe this is something we should do more often, but how do you know that you're actually improving yourself and doing the best and most of you? How do you know that by acting the way you act, you're just turning your life more miserable? Because it's not about being happy either...when you're happy, you really don't think as much as you do when you're concentrated and with ur eyes fixed to the wall. And when you're happy, you probably don't realise your own mistakes, you probably think you're doing the right thing. And that also goes with the ones who say that If god says it's ok, I'll be a better man. Just by going every sunday to church and having a blind faith you won't really improve yourself either. Thinking is ok, but if it gets you to something. I mean, I don't want to get into thinking if the conclusion is going to be ' I should be a better man', because, well, I need to act! I( and everyone else) should move my ass off this chair and do something smart, be productive, serve to the cause. But wait a minute, all I want to do is live my life, I don't give a shit how productive will I be, or how good of a man I'll be. My friends like me the way I am, my family doesn't. But why would I change? To make some happy and the others sad? All I want to do is get out there, to the mountains, ski, alone or together with my mind, I don't care, if it's necessary i'll leave my brains in bed next time I wake up from a party. Or maybe, instead of thinking, I should go grab a whiskey bottle, go dance for a while, hook up with a whore, maybe take some extasis, get home in 'good shape' at 1 in the afternoon after being away for 15 hours.
Also, what is it with all of this 'we should be more appreciative of what we have?' (it goes for everyone, it's not an individual attack) I am appreciative already, don't need people to constantly repeat the same bullshit over and over again. I, maybe, am one of the luckiest persons on earth, but still, might commit suicide in 20 years! What the fuck, we're all so different, and it's nice to be diferent, it would be so boring to be like you, or like him, or like her.
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I like to let myself getting carried away,
if that's a problem, I'll try another way
to get in this awfully full parkingway
I can't see the end of the street
Give me a joint, and I might be
here or there, right or left wing
I don't care, just give it to me.
L.A. Alexander 1689-1744