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I just felt it was a good time to extend this to you all, as for many of us our season has begun or will begin soon.

I have been an avid drug user for the past year. I have used EVERYTHING. I will let your minds wander to whatever extent you please. If you can think of any drug available in your town both illegal and pharmaceutical, chances are I have used and abused it.

Why?

I know why. I have a self diagnosed mental disorder. Whether its mild anxiety, or manic depression, I have no clue. All I know is there was a stage in my life at which I had completely lost grip of my reality and my identity (before drug use). But I'm not here so you can mourn for me. I don't deserve sympathy. I am here to highlight the importance in the contrast of the natural and artificial highs

I have been free-skiing for the better part of 6 years now, (Currently aged 17) and I know us, along with other sport fanatics and aficionados, are blessed. The blessing, is that we seek enjoyment and satisfaction in being active. It is not forcing yourself to exercise, it is not a chore, it is not recommended or prescribed to you by a practitioner, it is rather an intrinsic passion that we chase, and whilst it is undoubtedly the greatest cliche in the whole sporting community, it really is the greatest high, the greatest reward

Just know that when you clip in to your skis at the start of the season, and you get the endorphin rush on your first run, hold onto it, realise it, remember it. Now matter how much amphetamine I have shot up or smoked this year, every time I have clipped into a pair of skis, my brain goes to extra lengths to give me a dopamine rush despite most of my reserves being constantly drained. Don't take days on snow for granted. Sure skiing may be more expensive, but you don't have to endure shitty comedowns and awful addictions. In fact you should only feel satisfied after skiing or days of skiing

I have no proof of my drug use, nor would I have the need to prove it anyway. I have nothing to prove. However my circumstances (believed or not) have shown me that their is really nothing better than being attached to something that is good for your health, both mental and physical

In my hour of need I have had no friends to help me through. I have had drug addiction, drugs, and too much spare time.

I also have skiing. Sweet, free, skiing, where you can go on month long binges, and come out the other side better off than before