Replying to Fear Factor

So, I'm heading up to my local resort for the first time this season pretty soon here, and iv'e hit pretty much every size jump in the park, and its a pretty big park, but theres these two jumps, the biggest in the park both booter size, and every year i stand at the top of the first one looking down and being like, yeah this is the day, this is the fucking day, imma hit this shit, got my music going all pumped and what not, look at the guys who know what they're doing on the huge jumps check they're speed so i don't knuckle it or overshoot, and i've probably done this about 6 times now last season, i get ready to drop, about to push off and i just freeze, and i don't know what to do about it because i just can't seem to get past it, and then it's awkward because there's people in line waiting to drop who know what their doing and I'm just like standing there, pretty funny tbh

so long story short i pussy out of the jump every time, and I'm hoping to man the fuck up this year and go for it, any tips?

(Also! What's you're biggest accomplishment skiing wise when it comes to doing things you're scared of)