.undetectedI dont know I guess I just dont want to believe that death is just an abrupt end. It might just be me being in denial of it, but I just cant see how that would make sense. Reincarnation is something that I would tend to lean towards as an explanation to what happens after death. But I guess Ill know at some point in my life what happens.
And how can you not believe in free will? How do you go through life on a daily basis thinking like so? You seem very "negative" I don't think that you should go through life thinking like that.
Yet the way I see it, life in like you stated earlier "indistinguishable" and no matter how one perceives it, it really doesnt matter. Because no matter how many questions we ask and no matter how each person rationalizes what "life" is we just need to ask ourselves one question, What makes me happy? Of course I mean happiness in the simplest form. Like when you are by yourself and your mood is just 110% and you feel as if you are above everything and nothing can touch you. ie skiing for man of us newschoolers. Once you ask yourself this simple question and find an answer, then all that is left is to pursue whatever your answer was and as cliche as it may sound, just "live life".
But in the end who am I to say what to believe and what not to believe. As long as you are doing what you want to do, then nothing else matters.
Yeah, i dont think anything just "ends" either.
Dont worry about free will, i have some very smart friends that believe in it, and even i have to operate under that assumption most of the time. I cant just go around asking myself "what am i going to do what am i going to do". I have to operate as if i can violate causality.
But as an exercise, just think about cause and effect. A lightswitch wont turn itself on, and in my brain there are the equivalent of light switches that, say, lead to a yes or no decision. say i choose yes to something. Why did i choose yes? Everything happens for a reason, so following this, my choice of yes happened for a reason. And that reason is there before i officially made the choice, so my choice has been made before i even get to it.
If you dont like this reasoning dont let it get to you. Determinism is a worthless belief and it leads people to be lazy fucks like me.
But again i still operate under the assumption that i can do what i want, and i can, but i just cant choose who "I" am.
Let me know if you want me to explain more, but if you dont, dont sweat it. its effectively worthless to not believe in free will, but for me it was an impossible proposition based on the way i see things