Idk what you’re going on about, did I miss something on an earlier post? Some context maybe?
lemme tell you, I remember it was my senior year in HS when I learned I was into smart girls. I wanted a girl who would motivate me to be a better person. There was this girl in class who I thought was smart and driven and straight edged, but I was a pot smoking loser etc, I was too insecure so I wrote her a love note and passed it to her, my friends ridiculed me for being pussy and I never heard from her. Fast forward just a couple years, I end up dating a girl on a D1 college hockey team (while I had a weed grow in my house), and in the end I married a doctor and I’m only a slightly better, more refined version of myself but I never even had to change who I was.
not trying to make this a life story but JFC mate there’s so many fish in the sea. You don’t need to be fretting about “what if I changed my personality, she’d maybe touch my Pepe”. You’ll figer it out.
SteezyYeeterIf I had lived just a normal healthy lifestyle I would be dating the most beautiful and perfect girl I've ever known. I couldn't even bring myself to be attractive for her. I'm fucked, if that didn't motivate me literally nothing will. And everyone keeps telling me "its ok you guys are still friends" but it fucking kills me everyday I have to be friends and do schoolwork with her when all I want to do is tell her how much I love her. she knows I like her but she just can't see my as anything other than a friend. a best friend. I want to cut her out, try to move on, but I don't want to hurt her.
I'm not looking for answers just venting idk.
In all seriousness I think I will just drag myself along until there's a thaw in January and then I'll kill myself.
