stucciSucks that you're getting dealt lemons. You sound like a pretty awesome dude. Hope things start to come up bruh.
It'll all work out in the end. I'm alive, I'm not as poor as I used to be, I have some great friends, and a bunch of other things.
I just get really depressed sometimes, and then when you tack on a wave of other problems, it just hits me like a brick sometimes and is overwhelming.
I was pretty happy that after this last wave I changed my thinking the next day and within another day was starting to feel at peace with things. Still anxious and overwhelmed to an extent but much more able to cope.
I just need to find better means of working through things from the start. This last head injury def didn't help anything. I seem to be more depressed and more prone to dive full into it when bad things happen.
I've really gotten to experience some cool places, great people, awesome music, and a lot of time on my skis and my board. I really don't have things that bad. I think if I can scrape together some loot and get a better car that's reliable, that will help things. Also hopefully have a better winter season next year.
Hopefully this summer I'll get a chance to start my rail project, and maybe do some long hikes and try to center myself out a bit.
Then maybe I won't post fucked up shit anymore lol. IT wasn't even to be over dramatic, I was in a scary place. I just need to figure my shit out, make a plan, and hope for the best.
YOLO