connecticuntJust woke up from a 2 hour nap in my mom's car after walking out of the party when everyone started to get a little drunk and turn into an asshole. So my cousin had a baby a little over two months ago I think. She's showing my mom some pictures of the baby and I walked over to my mom to see if she remembers where I left my purse.
My cousin then decides it would be a great idea to rub her baby in my face saying, "hey do you want to see some pictures of the new baby? I heard you didn't have too much luck with that this year but hey, with all that motherly instinct bottled up and no baby of your own, you'd make a great babysitter for Faith!" And she actually fucking laughed about it. So I grabbed my bag and walked out. I think that's the last Christmas I'm spending with extended family.
Did she really say that?
That might be the most fucked up thing I've heard somebody say to family. Hopefully you can go skiing asap or do something to improve things. That's pretty fucking shitty honestly.
I wouldn't blame you for bailing out on christmas with the fam. I've been thinking about it for a while. I might just bring a boy with me next year, let a religious shitstorm ensue over that and then not be asked to attend again/ make things easy on myself.
I hope things turn up for you soon. Hang in there. I'd love to make promises that things will definitely get better in no time but you and I both no that'd be bullshit. I really do hope things turn around for you though.
It's nice when life cuts people a break sometimes. When the daily is just about survival and the future is bleak/unknown that's a pretty shit situation. People talk about happiness and I hope that everyone finds it, at least at some point. I don't really know what it means or how it feels, but the chance that it's real has convinced me to keep on trucking sometime. Maybe one day.
Hopefully your new years is better.
Hang in there