Replying to Mentality after serious fall

Hello NS. I am on mobile so sorry for the block. A few days ago me and my buddies were enjoying spring conditions shredding the park all day. No one was pushing too hard. Everyone having a blast. Well I'm sitting here now with little recollection of the day. I saw the video. Underotated a 7 and whipped right to my head. Serious concussion, brain hemmorage and shattered colar bone. My helmet has major crack and I believe it saved me. I am 21 years old now. The last 10 years I have dedicated to progressing in this sport, my one true passion in life. My accedemic semester is pretty much over. I can't be mentally or physically taxed. I'm sitting here thinking about next ski season. I won't be able to push myself ever again. Be stuck " chill riding" as I call it. I'm not looking for sympathy as it could of been much worse. I will heal. Just having problems coping with skiing being different for me for now on. Any help or similar stories would be great. PM me if need be. +k for entertaining stories and chill vibes. Thanks NS