Well here we go, I was diagnosed with anxiety 4 years ago, but I'm pretty sure I've had it my whole life. It got really bad when I started college. Strange enough I don't really have any social anxiety at all, I'm super outgoing, usually the party starter and I wear my favorite pair of gold spandex about once a month. However I have horrible anxiety. I've had multiple panic attacks and let me tell you they are awful, you can't breathe, I usually start sobbing uncontrollably and can't stop, and it feels like someone is sitting on my chest. I have Xanax which I try not to take because it just makes me sleep and I don't want to live my life in a trance, so I only take it if I'm having a panic attack and it helps calm me down. The problem for me is that I over think EVERYTHING. No matter how big or how small, I hear something in my car I think the worst, I cannot walk around my house in the dark I'm afraid someone is going to jump out and murder me, and the worst of it all is that it has made me a hypochondriac in the worst way. And the worst of it all is that I get physically sick when I get too anxious, I get tremors,nauseas and chest pains, but I have to just remember that I'm not actually sick that it's just my anxiety. Normal people look at what I just said and those are all completely irrational things, but to me I know that those things are completely irrational, but I can't help it. Deep breathing helps a lot. I try to be out and about a lot as it helps me not just sit around and think about shit. This was more of a ramble, but if you need advice or someone to talk to just shoot me a message.
Also, this week has been the worst. I'm moving across the country on Sunday and I'm so excited and nervous that my anxiety has been at like an all time high. Sleeping has been really difficult and I'm slightly worried that it's going to get worse and worse as the trip gets closer.
