Replacing Danger with Alcohol

I think its Danger we have lost... and are looking to replace. That rush we feel when we risk our lives..... Approaching the Edge... The difference with risking our lives through Dangerous Acts of Alcohol Abuse, is we are not in a state to appreciate the value of our lives at that moment. .. Lucky even to remember if we live through our event... You might think that extreme, however.. everything is Extreme about The Edge. I found the edge many times in life, in many different diciplines...it was kind of an obsession of mine.. Using my skills, gifted and earned, mental and physical, to approach the edge . Practicing Awareness and Balance, Focus and Determinination; Using Courage and Physics - I risked my life to get a fix. And guess what happened??? One day... Close to the edge.... I tripped. When I fell, it triggerred an avalanche, which swept me head first off of a 180 ft rocky cliff, bouncing and ragdolling, breaking 6 ribs inwards, a mm from my heart, 2 vertabrae, an 8 inch laceration to my head , a snapped femur and some scratches. Now I know what is Over The Edge. I now risk my life less often, run less yellow lights. . Because not everyone gets a shiny new Titanium Femur when they go over the edge. Some get a Nice Box. Am I replacing ("Living on a razors edge - Be Quick Or Be Dead" - the Iron Maiden song I was listening to when I went over) With risking my life through Alcohol ? I see the edge since I am miraculously blessed with normal life after what should have killed me, So I have a tool to use to bring me back from the edge. But I wonder about the ones that dont have the tools...