yea bro i went through some tough times. I started doing it in college but not often. When I graduated i moved and got a good job, there were some months where I as spending literally 1500$ on cocaine and I'd pay my rent on my CC. It snuck up quickly on me. I was buying $300 8 balls every weekend and they'd be gone by satuday night.
Moved back with parents then they caught me doing coke and booted me out of my house, so i was homeless for about a week. Thank god I had gotten a large bonus payment and literally just stayed in a hotel for a few days and friends houses other days. Found a new apartment, but after a month or two I got back into doing it again and I noticed my life getting back to fucked up. IDK how I kept a 50 hour a week job during all this, I was always fucked up. I'd bail on skiing / biking with friends so many times because i'd just be up doing blow all night. Some shitty times. Definitely should have reached out and gotten serious help but i was able to kick the habit and now I don't know where to get it so i'm good. I don't have any friends anymore who did it and I'm keeping it that way.
The night would start with a beer, then two then 6. I'd be driving hammered to the hood to grab an 8ball. Fuck that shit.
YoungWookieeNah,I actually got some help and thankfully went to rehab because my life was kinda spiraling out of control. My life goal at the time when I was addicted was to get that next bag though. I was pretty much selling off all my stuff that I worked hard to get for cheap just to throw it in my nose, didn’t have any motivation to do anything cause I was always hungover off coke and beer and had to get that next bag and rack of beer to feel better, I was stuck in place for a while. Gained a bunch of wait from all the booze I’d drink and shit. Rough times for me but I’m glad its all in the past. One of the shitty thing about drugs is you can do stupid shit and burn bridges with people you care about and that care about you and not care because in the moment you do that you’re all fucked up and don’t give a shit. I had a few friends that didn’t want to put up with my shit so they stayed away but once I got sober they actually reached out and I’m still friends with them. Yeah idk my advice for anybody that reads through this thread that needs help or thinks they’re falling off into the deep end, to just reach out for help because there is people that care about you and you will be able to get the help you need it’s a whole lot better than burying yourself.