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Borderline Personality Disorder

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Batman.
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diagnosed today, anybody else familiar with this?
May 15 2013 8:53PM
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k-rob
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nope but good luck with that, hopefully you get whatever help you need. i've got a few problems myself and it's not easy dealing with them but it has proven to be the best learning experience of my life thus far.
May 15 2013 9:08PM
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Miomo
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I might have borderline borderline personality disorder.
May 15 2013 9:09PM
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Batman.
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you'd know if you had it



there is no gray zone for me, i either love a person or hate them. in relationships it really fucks me over. in general it just makes me seem weird. i go from spending all my time with a few close friends to ignoring them completely for days/weeks at a time. currently i've alienated all my friends because this one girl i'm close to is leaving for france at the end of the school year and this is my way of ending my closeness with her before she does. not exactly enjoyable
May 15 2013 9:15PM
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.Jacob
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Pretty much this. Any mental disorder is not fun, but in the end it'll hopefully help you grow as a person.
May 15 2013 9:17PM
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Dingo69
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Doesnt bpd just mean youre an asshole?
May 15 2013 9:21PM
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Batman.
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you might be thinking of bipolar disorder but thats still not true
May 15 2013 9:25PM
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Stickity
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it's probably because your parents died in front of you. you hate them for dying when you were so young, but love them and will do anything to avenge them, which then carries over to how you view other people and yourself.
May 15 2013 9:31PM
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JeremyClarkson
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Everyone has BPD to some extent man. Its the Chlamydia of personality disorders, It sucks to get but its nothing that some medication and a long walk wont take of.
May 15 2013 9:33PM
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Batman.
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no they're still alive..

i just flip views so quickly. one moment i'll be extremely close to somebody and the next moment i won't want to have anything to do with them. it really sucks knowing that to them it just seems like i never liked having them around/it seems like i'm an asshole when in reality thats not true

luckily i switch views so often that i usually counter the periods of not wanting to be around someone by periods of being as nice as humanly possible to them
May 15 2013 9:34PM
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Stickity
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May 15 2013 9:35PM
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Batman.
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well theres normal emotions and then theres BPD. they're completely different, coming from someone who knows what it's like, but i can see what you're saying.

i take bike rides in the summer to just listen to music and think. during the time when i'm pushing all my friends away and being alone i have lots and lots of time to think and that's exactly what i do


theres no meds for BPD
May 15 2013 9:37PM
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Batman.
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sorry, kinda out of it at the moment

+k though, made me laugh when i realised it
May 15 2013 9:38PM
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theabortionator
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That sucks. Read that wiki page and can relate to a bunch of that shit. Especially the emotions.

I don't know what my problems are but I dealt with the mental health industry for the last time years ago. Had some doctor/therapist bitch try to lock me up. I'm not sure what they diagnosed me with but she can go fuck herself.

I feel I'm doing alright with everything. Managing things pretty well. Hopefully you have better luck with those types of people.


My emotions in regard to everything are pretty irrational. I feel by surrounding myself with things that I enjoy I can work through shit better. Build shit, snowboard, listen to music, go see music, wander and repeat every year. Still even then things get fucked up pretty easy.
May 15 2013 9:41PM
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Batman.
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well luckily (or maybe not?) i've never had therapy or counseling or medications. just a lot of friends that've been there for me in the past.... and eventually gotten fed up with putting up with me. it sucks that i've lost them all but at the same time when i have a friend who understands it does help a lot.


i agree though, i try to surround myself with everything i love - skiing, music, wandering, exercise, biking, trampoline, etc..... but at times it gets really lonely and boring doing all those things alone with nobody to share them with.

it gets especially hard when i have good times - like periods of time when i view everybody positively, because i REALLY REALLY idolize and look up to and love the people i'm around when that happens. i want to share everything with them and make them as happy as possible and i can be super loyal as a result, but sometimes i don't even get to the point of hanging out with them before i switch back.
May 15 2013 9:45PM
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Panda_with_Guns
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you know, reading that article, it sounds alot like me. especially the anxiety instead of nervousness, zoning out, and black and white thinking.

how hard was it to become diagnosed?
May 15 2013 9:47PM
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Stickity
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maybe just try to explain to them whenever you are in a funk there's nothing personal about it, it's just like an extended bad mood.
and maybe try to force yourself to not get in bad moods? like when you are feeling shitty try to work through it without running away from everything. i'm sure it'd be unbearably frustrating but maybe you could persevere through it
May 15 2013 9:48PM
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.Hugo.
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you just described me. shit
May 15 2013 9:50PM
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Batman.
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i have tried this

and i am aware of it when it happens, like i'll be sitting there like "well shit, here i go now i'm going to completely shut out the rest of the world"

but once i do i just can't break it. i can't go to the person and be like look this is whats happening and this is why. i can't force myself to even talk to them sometimes because i get so angry and annoyed/hateful over things i totally misinterpret.

it's not even running away from it sometimes. it's described in an article about BPD as "rejecting them before they can reject you", which is exactly what it is. they do something i don't like and i just shut them out completely so they can't do the same for me.
May 15 2013 10:01PM
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Batman.
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just don't confuse it with emotions. when i'm happy i'm really happy, when i'm sad i'm self-hating/harming, depressed, the full deal.

ive been in relationships where everything has been perfect and then the next day i didn't want anything to do with the girl i was dating. like i couldn't bear the thought of her at all.
May 15 2013 10:03PM
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Stickity
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mad vibes. i obviously don't know what it's like but maybe try to keep in the back of your head the thought that people typically aren't trying to be shitty and we're all just trying to get through life.
May 15 2013 10:06PM
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Batman.
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thanks homie

i know that, i don't want people to think i think poorly of them because i don't.
May 15 2013 10:07PM
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.Hugo.
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Ya I get the same way with my family. Then also with my roommates up at school, I literally felt like killing them at times then even just a couple hours later i'd be laughing and joking with them.

But i'm literally just a huge asshole a lot of the times. I hate it but I really can't help it
May 15 2013 10:07PM
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Batman.
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Yeah I feel all of those things as well but it affects even basic friendships or more complex ones too. I don't know how to describe it. When you start noticing patterns and asking yourself what is wrong with me, that's when you should talk to someone
May 15 2013 10:40PM
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.Hugo.
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This made me think about it more and I realized that with my roommates I think I got mad around them because in general I just didn't enjoy being around them and even when I tried to get away for a while and go to a friends they basically just followed me there so I couldn't ever get away for a while. This ended up in going somewhere then going home immediately just so I could get away and be alone for a while to calm myself. I just can't stand being around people that like to complain a lot and are just in general annoying and not fun so I don't think it is bpd. The stuff with my family though, I cannot explain why I do it.
May 15 2013 10:57PM
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Sophistication.
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I wish you the best of luck man.


May 15 2013 11:01PM
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Edward.
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there seems to be a diagnosis for almost every different personality out there today. i say move on with your life. thats just the way you are and you really dont need someone to help you change that if you really wanted to
May 15 2013 11:12PM
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Way*Mo
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Yes and no. The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM) is the reference used throughout the western world to diagnose mental issues. The fourth addition had gotten extremely convoluted and a lot of people were mis/over diagnosed as a result. They have revised it, and the newest volume is more reasonable. That being said, most conditions do hold significant validity.


May 16 2013 12:05AM
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Bodhisattva_
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My girlfriend just showed me the symptoms yesterday and told me k should get professionally diagnosed, it literally describes me exactly. I hate it so much and my mood swings and inability to connect with people really hurts her and I feel like I am probably gonna go try to see a therapist or something soon.
May 16 2013 12:09AM
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Bodhisattva_
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Fuck i do the same things. Some days my girlfriend its just every fucking thing she says makes me wanna freak out and I can't Help it, I'm blessed to have a girlfriend who understands and puts up wit me in these moods but she is gettin tired if it too. And like you said it sucks because I feel it coming and when it is there but nothing I can do about it.
May 16 2013 12:12AM
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J_MAC
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someone very close to me has this, you basically go through phases were first your very positive, you idolize people, and then suddenly you snap, could take a few days/weeks even months and you sink into a phase where all you see are the negative qualities of things, your super iritable and this suden change makes makes your friends think your weird/irational/heartless/mean. But its all a matter of perception because it does appear the same way to you.

Basically you gota find a passion important enough to keep you movin through the days and make up for the inconsistencies of your personal relationships
May 16 2013 6:08AM
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idskithat
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i just recently read a girl, interrupted for psyc class. ts about a girl who has borderline personality disoder, and i though it gave a good insight on how she really felt, and her road to recovery. maybe give it a read? but good luck to you man
May 16 2013 6:43AM
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feihlination
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not trying to be rude, but is there a scientific definition for when it isnt just being "emotional" but you have a mental disorder?


i think on a more general level, all those "disorders" are just called that way because they dont fit in with what is usually expected. what if this is just some kind of evolution and emotionally unstable people would have (if we were still in a survivial mode) some kind of advantage? (idk which one, just a theory)

pretty sure i am the least emotional guy around and people usually think that i cant be happy/sad/angry about something, but even if someone would diagnose a "disorder", i wouldnt call myself "sick" because i know thats just how i am.

people alienate friends for 1000 of reasons day in, day out.



to go even further, there arent dumb kids, just kids with learning disorders, no "active" kids, just kids with ADHD. imo, oftentimes parents/people themselves want to have an excuse for their problems. obviously there are people with severe mental problems, but i seriously think that a lot of mental disorders are no disorders from a biological/evolutionary point of view.

in all not talking about you specifically.



May 16 2013 6:53AM
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Batman.
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I do understand this view, it's definitely not uncommon. However when the disorder starts to affect your daily life in a negative way and induces long periods of depression and sadness that's when I'd call it a true disorder. When your view of yourself is so negative that it drives you to self harm and constant feelings of doubt and worthlessness that's when it's real and not just natural I guess. Granted a lot of mental disorders are natural in the sense that they have to do with chemical inbalances and the way your brain works. But when it degrades your quality of life that's when I'd consider it a real disorder.

That being said, to all the people wondering if they have BPD, have you been depressed for a while? I mean real malicious self-thoughts, suicidal thoughts, loneliness, isolation, self worth issues, doubt, anxiety, etc....

And then you'll be the happiest kid on earth one day. I used to go from self harming at night to bright and cheery in the morning, and I'd look back on what I had done and said the night before and I'd be shocked... Even though I knew I'd do the same stuff and say the same things that night.
May 16 2013 8:58AM
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MASkier
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That sounds a lot like me too. Do you reccomend getting a diagnosis ?
May 16 2013 9:42AM
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feihlination
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thats kind of what i excluded intentionally. when you begin to hurt yourself physically or psychologically, its probably a disease.

good luck
May 16 2013 10:32AM
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Batman.
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yeah. thanks man i appreciate it
May 16 2013 11:00AM
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May 16 2013 11:04AM
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jfoley019
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Sorry something on my work computer went fucken haywire. My wife was a social worker and had to deal with a lot of people who had this mental disorder. There are meds out there that can help. I suggest though to stay away from meds, ( read Anatomy of an Epidemic) try some therapy. There really isn't anything wrong with it, you will be surprised how many people currently are going to therapy. Good luck man!
May 16 2013 11:13AM
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Spinoza
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so do you have everyone's karma rating at either 0/10 or 10/10
May 16 2013 1:24PM
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