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Alcoholism

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gnarnia.
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Does anyone struggle with it? I'm not a hand sanitizer drinking or put a shot in my coffee every morning, but I definitely think I overdo it at times. I'm 22, and often revert to the fact that oh im in college, this is normal, but I don't know if its just an excuse I'm making for myself. Just seeing if anyone on here ever feels the same. I wrote this in my notes monday during class, and my professor found it and asked me about it and it made me think.

well here it is for anyone thats interested:


I sit here with a few inches left in the ever so familiar bottle of Jack Daniels that my legs are straddling. I’m having trouble focusing on the pixels and airwaves coming out of the box on the wall. Nick Swardson, or Katt Williams. Something like that. Dominoes pizza shrapnel and my Xanax prescription litter my sticky coffee table. Just another collegiate night in hazy paradise right? Not exactly. It’s Tuesday, and in ten more minutes I’ll have to peel myself out of the indent of my couch and take a shower. Class. I’ve successfully spent the entire night sitting here, thinking about all the things that I need to accomplish and not getting any of it done. The more I put it off the deeper hole I dig. It’s like knowingly walking further into the ocean, knowing full well that you’re not a good swimmer. Proficient. You could save a toddler. But now you’re starting to lose sight of the land behind you. You can’t see people running on the beach, you’ve got water on all four sides, and you’ve done it to yourself. My ocean is twice distilled and 80 proof. On paper I’m your average college fuck up who can’t seem to get it all together, but I often fear that it could be more than that. I just pray that I’m wrong. I don’t want to have to have a handful of silver bullets to sing me a lullaby every night. I don’t want to take a pill to stop my heart from beating out of my chest when I’m having a sober enough moment to acknowledge all the things I’m afraid of.
Dec 12 2012 9:10PM
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TheStudioCC
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Take control of the situation.
Dec 12 2012 9:11PM
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Pancake_Fucker
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I drink a lot but I've never drank myself gay.
Dec 12 2012 9:12PM
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MilaKunis
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Lost
Dec 12 2012 9:13PM
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gnarnia.
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guess I have to take NS for what its worth, just seeing if anyone ever thought the same way about it. Mods can delete this.
Dec 12 2012 9:13PM
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TheStudioCC
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You're being a pussy OP. If you think you have a drinking problem quit, enroll yourself in AA. Don't just sit around wallowing in your depression. Man the fuck up and take control.
Dec 12 2012 9:15PM
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skinakedfast
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I don't know man, take control and take a brake if you think you got a problem.
But I think you aren't giving yourself enough credit at least you go to class it seems.
Ask yourself some questions:
can you have fun without drinking?
Do you have to get drunk or can you just have a few?
Do you base your day around it?
Do you scrape all your money up to buy the cheapest 5th?
are you sober hours out of the day?
Do you eat or drink more?
Figure it out bro, you'll figure out what's going on.


Dec 12 2012 9:17PM
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Pancake_Fucker
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Seriously? He can't be that serious if he is asking ns for substance abuse advice. He just admitted to a problem. The only logical step is to seek help. And not from a ski forum.
Dec 12 2012 9:17PM
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DINGWALL
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that's actually really nice writing. even more impressive if you were wasted when you wrote it.

fortunately I've never been much of a drinker so I can't help you.
Dec 12 2012 9:20PM
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gnarnia.
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Fuck people like you dude. I don't use my rent money to buy 8 dollar handles of vodka and i dont drink everyday. I'm not a full fledged alcoholic where i believe i need counseling, I just think that when I do go out I overdo it a lot of the time. I'm not depressed at all, I'm graduating in May, have an insane job lined up, and I have a great girlfriend and family. I was just seeing if anyone else could relate, I wasn't trying to make a pity party thread so just relax
Dec 12 2012 9:21PM
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Willgum
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I think that yeah we're in college, so its alright to get drunk on the weekends. But if you start to notice it affecting your grades, relationships, and most of all, emotions, then you should be worried. It seems like your emotions are affected, so that puts up a red flag.

But its college, everyone drinks so dont feel too guilty as long as its not truly hurting you.


Also +k for the pizza shrapnel reference in your notes, made me laugh hahaha


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Dec 12 2012 9:22PM
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Pancake_Fucker
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You're 22. I think it's pretty normal. Not healthy, but normal.
Dec 12 2012 9:22PM
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daannnnieel
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well this post cleared up this thread quite a lot, that writing you did really didn't help people thinking that this isn't supposto be a pity party.

Stop drinking for a couple weeks, clear your head out and see how you feel.
Dec 12 2012 9:27PM
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TheStudioCC
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Based on what you wrote it seemed like you were a full blown alcoholic. Clearly that's not the case, you just like to get fucked up. Don't carry that over to the real world, just realize you've had your fun and now its time to chill out. You talk about being a college fuck up, but you have a great job lined up. Reread what you wrote, then maybe you'll understand why I said what I did.
Dec 12 2012 9:28PM
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gnarnia.
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sorry for the confusion. i write everyday, a lot. and this was just a drunk rambling that I thought was relevant, because my teacher is the one that got me really thinking about the subject.

but i think the best thing for me will be doing what youve suggested. its just hard with vacation, holidays, weekends, theres alwways an excuse you know? but i guess that parts up to me.
Dec 12 2012 9:29PM
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proZach
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hahahahahahaha
Dec 12 2012 9:36PM
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Leafs2323
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only way to cure alcoholism........ Boof some cocaine
Dec 12 2012 9:38PM
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powderdrunkie
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drinking on xanax is simply just a waste of xanax.
Dec 12 2012 9:40PM
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theabortionator
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Idk why but I had a good chuckle. And most shit on the internet doesn't do it for me these days.
Dec 12 2012 9:41PM
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Stickity
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stop being a pussy
Dec 12 2012 9:42PM
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BmoChop
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why the fuck you on xannies man? thats a bad combo
Dec 12 2012 9:43PM
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danderson.
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Never struggled with it, but I think you might have a problem. I would advise quitting cold turkey before seeking professional help because that's just going to add to your already hectic college schedule. Just take your mind off of it. Chew a piece of gum whenever you want to take a drink or plan on drinking. To me, the scary thought of getting very behind in school work is enough to get me motivated, but I know everyone's different. Feel free to PM me if you need some more help. You can do this!
Dec 12 2012 9:45PM
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Ac31stuff
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I see drunk people a lot and think that they look and act like complete idiots so i dont drink on the bases of not wanting to act like a complete idiot. Plus my dad was an alchohlic so that was a good way to make me know drinkings bad. I do partake in the magic green leaf every now and again though
Dec 12 2012 9:45PM
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PeppermillReno
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Do you booze hard by yourself?


If yes you have a real problem.
Dec 12 2012 9:47PM
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PeppermillReno
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Needing a couple brews every day or acting a fool when you drink isn't real alcoholism.

Unless you put down a handle by yourself just chilling alone you don't have a real drinking problem.

Dec 12 2012 9:51PM
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gnarnia.
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thanks for the legit advice guys. and to clarify, i dont take xanax when i drink/do it to get more fucked up, i have them for anxiety, i dont abuse those at all. no addiction or anything like that.

but ive had nights where ill have a dozen beers by myself watching a game or something. and i equate that to doing the same thing with friends, but im in a program/job where i work about an hour from all my friends. so id be doing the same thing, just in a social environment.
Dec 12 2012 9:54PM
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daannnnieel
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I know exactly where you're coming from, I personally would leave it untill after the holidays mind you. You'll get it all sorted out, and at your age it doesn't seem like it's all that out of the ordinary anyways, you're only young once.
Dec 12 2012 10:23PM
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.Jacob
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A hearty laugh ensued.
Dec 12 2012 10:31PM
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Puzzled
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Life's too short man, you're still young, get wasted if it makes you happy. Who are these people looking at your from the beach? Trust yourself. The most enlightened persons to live on this planet where the ones that dared to swim farther from shore.

You're an intelligent fella, and I'm sure you'll know where to draw the line.
Dec 12 2012 10:50PM
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theabortionator
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For people who are really bad I think they tell you to keep drinking until they have a bed open for you.
Dec 13 2012 12:50AM
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TRASHY.
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just make sure you catch yourself before you do turn into a full on alcoholic, I've seen a few alcoholics in the hospital already, and a damaged liver is no good. Watch your drinking habits and I'm sure your gf will support you.
Dec 13 2012 1:59AM
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steezywannabeezy
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One cure for alcoholism: buy more expensive (less volume) alcohol. You'll not be stupid drunk, and you will have had something to enjoy. Instead of a 24 pack of piss, buy a couple classy six packs. You'll save some money and your taste buds will thank you.
Dec 13 2012 2:18AM
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crazysincethe80s
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Really like your writing man. Also, stop taking Xanax
Dec 13 2012 2:20AM
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SkiFreshPow
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i sometimes think the same thing. On a Friday night after a long week I can't wait to start drinking and I do the same on Saturday, but I don't touch alcohol during the week. I think if you rely on alcohol to make you feel good then yes, you are an alcoholic, but if you only do it to go out and just get weird a few nights a week then I don't see a problem there. As was said earlier, take control of the situation.
Dec 13 2012 3:22AM
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MNS
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I would recommend you stay sober til New Years. See how it goes. If you can't do that, grow and brain and get help somewhere other than a Internet forum
Dec 13 2012 3:32AM
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.Hugo.
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Does your girlfriend or family say anything about your drinking ever? If the ones you love and are close to don't think you have a problem you most likely don't.
Dec 13 2012 3:34AM
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fupaface
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If you think you have a drinking problem then quit drinking, i know it is easier said than done but you gotta do what you gotta do
Dec 13 2012 3:42AM
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annex_
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I've definitely had those thoughts before not gonna lie. My dad's a borderline alcoholic i guess you could say, and it kind of runs in my family but not the the point where it's an insane problem. but i've definitely thought about whether or not my drinking could be a problem. I've definitely cut back a lot over the last year/year and a half. I barely go out anymore, and I usually just go out with friends to a bar for a drink or two then head home, maybe have some wine with dinner or a beer just watching tv or something, but it's only once in a while now. I used to go out every week and get smashed, then go out all weekend and get drunk again. I dunno I kinda just thought about it, plus school's getting a lot more hectic so I just don't see the point or have the time to drink, plus I only buy good beer or wine now so I have no desire to drink it to the last drop.
Dec 13 2012 3:51AM
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Jane6
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I'm always told by others that I drink way too much and often, but personally I dont think I have a problem at all. The biggest cliché ever, but I can stop when I want to, I was sober for 6 months last year, to prove to myself and others that I dont have to drink everytime I go out (plus I wanted to save money). For the last 2 years I've also noticed that I drink because I like the TASTE of it, not because I want to get drunk (like I did when I was 15).

I would say that I would have a problem when I'm at the point where I cant enjoy myself without alcohol, or that I get cravings for it. Drinking by yourself isnt anything I do, since all my alcohol consumption is in the socializing purpose (drinking with friends).

If you're worried that you have a problem, try to cut down for a while and see if you notice any changes, or just try not to get blackout drunk everytime you drink.

sorry if this is repeating what everyone else already said, best of luck, man!
Dec 13 2012 6:14AM
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B.Aussie
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I like the way you write.
Dec 13 2012 7:14AM
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DockEllis
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Dude this is not a "cure of alcoholism" at all. So you're advice to someone with a true alcohol problem (not saying OP does) is to buy nicer alcohol? You've got to be kidding me.
Dec 13 2012 8:52AM
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