Replying to How to deal with depression?

I can't really cope with it anymore. I don't want to tell people because i'm too scared, but I want to at the same time, it's so fucked. It has gotten worse over the past few weeks for some reason. I feel shitty and bipolar when i'm high now, which is a piss off because weed was one of the five things that made me actually happy, along with girls, drinking, biking and skiing. I can't even pull myself to talk to girls anymore, because I have no self esteem left now. I just don't know what to do, and yes this is an alias. I don't want to post on my normal account because I have friends on ns, who would probably see this.