i was driving to school, and i heard it on the radio. i was immediately pissed. i didn't realize how much sadness would follow, i was moved by anger first. then i saw a girl i knew in our school's quad crying, and i knew it was because her dad had to go on business trips to D.C., and sometimes had to be at the Pentagon. I knew in an instant that was what was troubling her, and i think that was when i first started to realize what kind of tragedy was occuring. i talked to her for a awhile, and then one of her friends drove her home. when she had gone, emotion welled up inside of me and i went into the bathroom and broke a mirror and punched the wall. i was so sad and angry at the same time, full of rage while tears welled up in my eyes. i will never forget that feeling, for the rest of my life.
only a few times in my life have i been so overcome with emotion. when i saw the american hostage execution video, and saw the proof of the pure evil that exists in this world, i was affected in a similar way, but more anger followed, although i never broke anything. i can't believe how some people can do the things that they do. i'm sitting here feeling a flood of emotion as i type this. it's so horrible, i can't put it into words. i want so badly to be able to help those who suffer because of it, and stop the terrible acts that occur, but it is beyond my ability, and it is one of the most frustrating things i can imagine. i want to do whatever i can, and i try, but it just seems like so little. it's discouraging, but i know i've just got to do whatever i can. i wish it was clear and easy to accomplish. it kills me inside, seriously, it really does.
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No one on their death bed ever said, 'I wish I'd played it safe' -blind_five
