Just wanted to make an outreach to the small psychedelic community that exists on NS.
My brother who has a lot of experience and courage with psychedelics, just picked me up an eighth of shrooms. I have never tried mushrooms before and I haven't really experimented with any other psychedelics although I feel like I have experienced a lot of weird feelings in my life. I am currently 21 years of age, which probably doesn't matter too much. I've had the opportunity to trip for a long time considering my brother and the high school that I attended. Drugs were abundant. However, I tended to fear and avoid anything passed getting drunk or high.
I have also always been a huge introvert and observer. I feel like I have never really fit in with anybody or any particular paradigm/belief system IE religion, our culture, cities, peer groups/teams, school etc. I also have greatly enjoyed my observances. I love to think especially in a psychedelic manner. I love to read, learn, and listen to anything about psychedelics, consciousness, physics, psychology, sociology, astronomy, alchemy etc. I love to study things that have an insightful perspective on the workings of our world. I think that viewing many aspects of life helps us see the clearer picture. I want to see through the lense of the shroom now. I think that the shrooms and culmination of what I have been researching into and learning about should culminate and resonate well together.
I thought I would also mention that I have smoked pot on and off for 6 years. This year really has been the year that I have smoked the most. I smoke everyday constantly. I do this because I have become much more comfortable in this mindset. Not laziness however, the power behind ideas and music and creativity so much more abundant when I'm high. I've also noticed that the personality behind weed has helped me move from rational thinking to more of an emotion based intuition. I feel more in touch and my senses feel heightened when I'm high.
Another important thing I thought I should mention is that people make my skin crawl. I have a lot of friends, but I honestly don't feel a tight tie to anyone in my peer group. Don't get me wrong, I like to socialize, go out, and have a good time, but socializing requires a lot of energy for me. I have to charge back up by chilling alone. When I have gotten really baked with my friends, it can sometimes be a really hard experience for me. I almost feel all my personality drains my body. I am super analytical of anything I think about saying. I also become 10 times more analytical of my friends and their behavior. It sort of feels like I am a scientist watching but that I am not in the room to participate. I also feel a huge increase in awkwardness and a heightened awareness of connection between my friends and I. This happens about half the time I get baked with friends. The other half of the time its enjoyable. I think this is caused by myself being way too over analytical. I also have these same feelings when Im high in public but their usually even harder to manage.
None of my close friends have any psychedelic knowledge or experience. However, I do have friends that have a lot of experience with these kinds of things. However, I am not super close to these people and would probably feel uncomfortable around them just getting baked. Basically, at this point I'm thinking that the easiest experience I will have with these shrooms is if I take them alone. I feel like if I'm around anybody, I will lose focus and think in the wrong mindset during the trip. I am super self-reliant and usually feel best when alone and unnoticed.
I am thinking that I will take the shrooms alone in my apartment when the vibe is feeling good. I will medidate and spend the day getting my head in the right mindset to trip. I was also planning on not eating for a couple hours before I eat the mushrooms. I was also planning on lying in my bed medidation during the onset of the trip. I was planning on staying in my bed during the whole trip. I'm not sure if this is a great idea, but I think this is what will be easiest and most comfortable to me. So I would take the shrooms alone in my bed at night and stay in the same place until the trip was over.
So NS, do you think it is best FOR ME to eat these shrooms alone for my first trip ever?
Also, how does my plan for the trip sound to you?
I would also love to hear you first trip experiences or just anything interesting you have to say on the subject matter.
Thanks guys
