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Anorexia is a bitch of disease...

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yourthemannowdog
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I'm gonna keep this comparatively short (it would be a few pages typed if i told the full story) and to the point

For the past six months I have been fighting a downward battle with anorexia and two days ago i hit my, what I hope, was the lowest point in my life. I visited the doctor to my weekly weigh in(to monitor my progress with the anorexia) and results were fatal. I slumped to 104 pounds and my heart rate was sitting at 37 bpm on the EKG. At 5 foot 10 inches and being a fully developed man my BMI dipped below 15.

Yesterday i was admitted for inpatient care at a children's hospital where i will spend my Christmas morning getting myself medically stable. I originally had plans to fly to Ireland to attend my Grand-Parents 50th anniversary, but my doctor is worried that my heart won't be able to handle it

I'm mingling with death and I'm really fucking scared to say the least, thank you for listening
Dec 14 2011 7:27AM
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Charlie_Kelly
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even better. Tell parents plan. Smoke. Have parent cook meal high in nutrients and "good fat". Eat. Sleep. Repeat.
Dec 14 2011 1:48PM
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Jane6
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@ Brock cant tell if trolling or being a douche. read a little about anorexia before posting nonsense like this.
Dec 14 2011 1:55PM
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1337
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troll
Dec 14 2011 2:07PM
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caliskigirl
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Vibes man, I hope you recover soon, both physically and overall. I know first hand about the struggles with eating disorders and recovering from them/getting over them, feel free to pm me if you have questions or just want to talk :)
Dec 14 2011 2:08PM
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spliff.Life
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hahah my kind of list.

Dec 14 2011 2:11PM
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.AR6rider.
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Dumb. As. Fuck.


That's like talking to someone with depression and being like, "Hey, why don't you just be happy? Play video games or watch a funny movie or something, man. Smoke some weed, yooo. You're only making yourself sad. Bunch of nonsense."


I realize I've probably been trolled, but god damn, some people...
Dec 14 2011 2:17PM
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LeoSpaceman
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"Anorexia nervosa (AN), also known as simply Anorexia, is an eating disorder characterized by refusal to maintain a healthy body weight, and an obsessive fear of gaining weight. Anorexia Nervosa is a disorder, however, while the term "anorexia" refers to the actual loss of appetite. One must be careful when using these terms interchangeably, since anorexia can be caused by a number of factors in a person's life and is often a temporary side effect. Certain medications or extreme stress, for example, may cause one to have anorexia. Anorexia Nervosa, on the other hand, has many complicated implications and may be thought of as a lifelong illness that survivors battle. Anorexia Nervosa is often coupled with a distorted self image which may be maintained by various cognitive biases that alter how the affected individual evaluates and thinks about her or his body, food and eating. Persons with anorexia nervosa continue to feel hunger, but deny themselves all but very small quantities of food. The average caloric intake of a person with anorexia nervosa is 600–800 calories per day, but extreme cases of complete self-starvation are known. It is a serious mental illness with a high incidence of comorbidity and the highest mortality rate of any psychiatric disorder."


i never understood this disorder. food is fucking awesome.
Dec 14 2011 2:19PM
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LeoSpaceman
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loldepression

people are just pussies. the world sucks and some people can't handle it and just need an excuse to be a sad pussy all the time.
Dec 14 2011 2:21PM
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shibby
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What a stupid fucking "disease". If you can't bring yourself to eat a fucking sandwich after a noticeable/worrying drop in weight then shame on you.


Dec 14 2011 2:23PM
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.AR6rider.
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Obvious 12 year old with no real education is obvious. Sorry they don't teach you about this stuff in middle school, brah.
Dec 14 2011 2:24PM
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StreetsOfRage
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vibes man.
Dec 14 2011 2:39PM
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Jane6
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quoting for emphasis
Dec 14 2011 2:46PM
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yourthemannowdog
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I know it's a weird disorder. I don't understand it and i'm fighting it.

For me it isn't the fear of being fat or gaining weight, it's about control and is heavily influenced by depression. I guess you need to see it's effects first hands to be empathetic for someone with an eating disorder. I'm not self conscious and i don't think most people with eating disorders are. Being self conscious could trigger it, but that is not what the eating disorder is comprised of
Dec 14 2011 2:58PM
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-dva-
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one of my good friends from high school almost lost her battle with anorexia, with emphasis on the almost. never give up hope man, and be open with your friends and family. my understanding as an outsider is that it's impossible to comprehend the psychological battle that comes with anorexia, but the more you share the easier it is for others to help. do anything you can to keep your spirits up and take time to do things that make you feel good about yourself. positive vibes, and get healthy man. best of luck
Dec 14 2011 3:13PM
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familyjules
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Sorry to hear you're going through this, but good for you for realizing the seriousness of this disorder and accepting the help that is being offered to you. I'm currently a psych major with an abnormal psych concentration and one day I hope to work with and counsel teens fighting this disorder. I've lost a very good friend to this disease (mainly after refusing help that was offered to her for years), and it's certainly not something that gets enough attention in health classes or the media about it's severity.

All the best, my thoughts are with you
Dec 14 2011 4:12PM
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Lolocaust.
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Leave. Just leave. You are literally so fucking stupid I want to punch myself in the face repeatedly. People on the internet usually don't bother me in the slightest, but for some reason every single time you post I want to fucking murder baby animals. For the sake of my sanity, and the rest of NS, leave and never come back, or just fucking kill yourself. Fuck
Dec 14 2011 4:32PM
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.AR6rider.
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Ahem, I believe citations will be needed for this quote.
Dec 14 2011 4:34PM
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Lolocaust.
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Favorite fucking member on here.
Dec 14 2011 4:36PM
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Gold
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I fully agree with what you're saying.. Though I think it should also apply to you hence your username. Disgraceful to say the least. It's nothing to joke around about.
Dec 14 2011 4:41PM
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Gold
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Grow up kid, get educated on it troll.
Dec 14 2011 4:45PM
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Panda_with_Guns
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ya dude im 15 and my parents are 55
Dec 14 2011 4:45PM
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Lolocaust.
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you, Shut the fuck up. Take a joke. Its a fucking username.




LYK OMFG DUDE THATS SO FUCKD!!!!111111






Dec 14 2011 4:45PM
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MANDER
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Go fuck yourself and get some respect.
Dec 14 2011 4:45PM
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.AR6rider.
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You know what was funnier? That time you were brutally nailed to a cross and left to die.
Dec 14 2011 4:46PM
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Moment
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Best wishes on a a safe and health recovery.
Always look on the bright side of life.
-Moment
(hope you like the song)


"but if you want something to change, you gotta change your life, and take your time, it just takes time, ...hard work and your time"

Dec 14 2011 4:48PM
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goonsquad08
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Best of luck getting healthy man. I know a lot of the "kids" on NS can be real immature and not take things seriously, so dont pay attention to what they say. They're just trying to be funny and sound cool or "troll" when it's completely unnecessary. Let us know how you're doin and what your progress is. Hope you get better soon.
Dec 14 2011 4:50PM
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Lolocaust.
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Dec 14 2011 4:53PM
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Joe_Brogan
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+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ vibes
Dec 14 2011 4:58PM
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comeatmebro
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i'm not trying to sound rude or ignorant, i just really don't have any personal experience with this disease, and i'm not sure how it's brought on. is it something like you have no appetite? no drive to eat? i really just can't understand it. even if you aren't hungry, why can't you just eat? i mean it has obviously come down to life and death, so for the sake of living...why not force some damn food down your throat? maybe this is coupled with depression as well? do you want to eat food? self conscious of your body? sorry just trying to understand how this is brought on. everybody i have heard of with anorexia just doesn't eat because they feel as though they are fat or whatever...

like i said i don't think anybody can comprehend this without experiencing it themselves. to me the solution seems simple...eat some damn food lol. but it is obviously much more than that or i'm sure you wouldn't be in this situation.
Dec 14 2011 5:00PM
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TOAST.
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To the people hating in this thread just leave. The OP is going through some ruff times and is just looking for some support. There is no reason to hate and say how much better you think you are than somebody else. It doesnt help him at all and you dont gain anything from it, SO JUST STOP and take your hate somewhere else please.


To OP, good luck and I hope you pull through.
Dec 14 2011 5:04PM
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familyjules
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one of my best friends passed away from complications from anorexia 2 years ago. she was such a gorgeous girl, funny, smart. but her parents were divorced and she had a fairly stressful home life. her weight and appearance were  the only things she had control over, and she felt safe with that.

anorexia is as much/as serious of a disorder as depression, and people always seem to trivialize it to think that eating more is the obvious and simple solution. it's like telling a person with OCD that touching the doorknob 5 times will not matter and won't change the course of their day. people with OCD have compulsions they need to fulfill, that's their safe haven. anorexics control their appearance for their safe haven.

don't mean to get carried away, just an issue that is very close to my heart. i currently intern at a sort of half-way house where patients that were previously admitted in hospitals for psychiatric care are learning to live on their own again because they have no family or friends to help. so rewarding but so sad at the same time.
Dec 14 2011 5:12PM
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comeatmebro
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lol i also don't understand how people with OCD can't just quit doing that shit...i suppose it's something i'll never fully grasp unless it happens to somebody close to me.

i mean it seems like if they'd just not touch that god damn doorknob 5 times and realize the world didn't end...they'd realize how "stupid" what they are doing really is.

hate to use the word stupid, but it's the only word that describes how it seems to me. pointless works as well haha.
Dec 14 2011 5:16PM
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familyjules
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you have to realize that there are chemical imbalances in the brain are going on with people with OCD and depression as well. it's not just them being freaks of nature who think brushing their teeth 15 times will keep them from dying the next day. there are really intensive treatments that i've seen work on some and fail miserably on others. the person has to accept help and believe in themselves. my friend didn't do that in time unfortunately and she isn't around today as a result of that.

anyone with mental disorders needs support and nothing else. it's difficult enough working with these people on a daily basis, i can't imagine what it's like to actually live with anorexia or OCD or anything else. for the courageous people i get to work with, they're awesome for sticking it out and they're so inspiring.
Dec 14 2011 5:22PM
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InFlames
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Good luck on your recovery man. If you ever have problems you can just come live at my house. My Mom'll make sure you eat enough hahah. Seriously though, chin up and I hope you have a merry christmas dude.
Dec 14 2011 5:25PM
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Brock.
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So there is some biological reason that this man cannot ingest and properly digest food, leaving his body starved of nutrients and resulting in unhealthy levels of weight loss?

Im not trolling, completely serious. I don't know much about anorexia.

Dec 14 2011 5:26PM
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Brock.
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Way to insult me for no reason dude... It was a question. You could have fucking given me a straight answer. Don't even get me started about depression, I have been living with it for quite some time.
Dec 14 2011 5:28PM
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Heart
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a lot of people don't understand that a mental disorder isn't something you can just"fix." I have OCD. I used to wash my hands nonfuckingstop, and it pissed the fuck out of me when someone who knew about it would say something like "hurt just stop it." that's the problem, you can't. This was years ago and op has a problem whic obviously is much harder to deal with, but still, I sympathize. best of luck to you.
Dec 14 2011 5:33PM
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Brock.
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OHHH... Well I have learned something new. That is actually terrible, I really hope the O.P. can get through this, sounds exactly like anxiety disorders, but with compulsive starvation... I sometimes notice that I am gaining weight and make little mental notices about it which usually come up during a meal, but I just love food too much to be starving myself like that...

Good luck dude, Im really sorry you have to live with something like that. Self image problems are truly tragic.
Dec 14 2011 5:36PM
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Pow.yuHdig*
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if you ask one of the red or green names they could probably hook you up with a pink name
Dec 14 2011 5:36PM
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Brock.
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Your name is Lolocaust. Your icon is Anne Frank.

So yea, you can join the "shut-the-fuck-up-and-kill-yourself" too.
Dec 14 2011 5:38PM
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caliskigirl
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I'm not going to be mad about this, or the other ignorant comments, because honestly I think this, like other disorders and compulsions, are really difficult to understand if you personally haven't been through it or known someone close who has been through it. What you are saying is pretty much impossible for someone truly affected by a disorder like this-you can't just tell a depressed person to be happy, someone with OCD to just stop being compulsive, an anorexic person to just eat, etc. Maybe you can tell someone that in the early stages in the case of an eating disorder, maybe if you catch it really early. It isn't usually just a matter of "I think that I'm fat" or "I just want to be really skinny because I think the whole protruding bones look is super hot" (modeling industry notwithstanding)-I feel like it's more often the perfectionist pretty girls, the ones who seem to be doing awesome but have some serious personal/emotional turmoil that they are hiding (and some sports can exacerbate it-dance/ballet, running, gymnastics come to mind). It starts out as a compensatory behavior-I'd say that a combination of some severe stressful situation or multiple situations, and the individual's own tendencies is what triggers it. It feels good, it's the one thing you can control in your life (this could be anorexia nervosa, bulimia, compulsive overeating, drug addiction, hell it could be a shopaholic or alcoholic or other -olic). In some cases I'm sure depression plays a role, but that isn't necessarily typical I don't think. But the one thing that gives you comfort ends up consuming you...it is truly like a drug addiction. Your brain becomes dependent on that feeling you get-it's literally a fucked up rewarding experience, something that you are disgusted by doing but literally can't not do or you feel like you've failed at just one more thing. It becomes part of who you are. It's frustrating for those who want to help, because honestly it's something that only the afflicted individual can chose to stop or not stop, and "chose" is relative=it can take a lot of work and therapy to recover and regain control of your life. Even when you are fully recovered and haven't engaged in some addictive behavior or another for a long time, it never leaves you. It just becomes controllable.
Ok that was long. I hope that helps a little bit. You can't just make someone with anorexia nervosa eat-that's a good way to get them to start being bulimic. They have to recognize that they have a problem that will kill them if they don't stop, it often requires professional help, and it requires solving the underlying problem of what caused you to start the self-destructive behavior in the first place.
OP-good on you for recognizing that you have a problem. You are taking the first steps=get yourself physically healthy. Please get help, I know it's in the end your battle to fight, but please try to fight back. You can do it :)
Dec 14 2011 5:42PM
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Deluge
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Dec 14 2011 5:51PM
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Gold
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I won't take it as a joke, it's not even close to being comical. Around 6 million innocent lives were lost to the holocaust, the young and the old. It's also completely absurd what victims were put through, seems like you're completely unaware of anything. Change your username.
Dec 14 2011 6:24PM
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yourthemannowdog
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Thanks for the support, i realised the moment i hit 'Post' that there would be comments like "Just eat something". It is inevitable with this topic. I'm going to be close to my computer for my stay in the hospital.

Today I was stuck in my room because walking around is too risky when my heart rate is in the 30s. I am starting to find my appetite again and i'm feeling better. It's gonna be a long fight and I just need to take it day by day
Dec 14 2011 6:38PM
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KevinK.
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You must be the most retarded piece of shit in the world. 50th anniversary means that they been married for 50 years, not alive for 50 years and do not be an insensitive asshole just because your on the internet it does not make you cool.
To the OP I hope everything gets better!
Dec 14 2011 6:39PM
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shibby
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Yeah dude anorexic kids have it so "ruff". Out of all these over hyped mental "illnesses" this is by far the most retarded one. Put some God damn food in your pie hole and problem solved. How fucking hard is that?

And a big preemptive fuck you too all the oversensitive dumb asses who will call me out for this. You all need a serious reality check.
Dec 14 2011 6:41PM
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Gold
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Hope you get better! Stay strong, it sounds terrible to live a day like that. Sorry I didn't reply to your cause before I adressed someone else in your thread. Keep us updated!
Dec 14 2011 6:41PM
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.AR6rider.
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I'm not going to pick apart your worthless argument. All I'm going to say is: you are literally dumber than a shit covered sack of half eaten potatoes. That is all.
Dec 14 2011 6:43PM
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Jane6
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@shibby what are you writing? all I can see is "deeeeEeEEEerrp"
Dec 14 2011 6:45PM
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shibby
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^Idiots. It's not rocket science, eat food, drink water, sleep and you will be healthy. If you actually have some sort of mental/chemical imbalance that makes you do this to yourself then take one for the team, check into the psych ward and don't reproduce, thank you.
Dec 14 2011 6:50PM
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