emilyiscool is a dude named neil and he plays dungeons and dragons in his spare time. do not trust a word he says.
that said, good luck with your gay stuff. my cousin is a full out DYKE (and i say this only because she's the dude, and she's family) and she is married to a chick and has two adopted kids. guess her shit's alright though. weird to think of your own cousin munching rug, though. i remember when my family was staying with her family years ago, and she had a friend over the whole time. i just assumed it was a friend looking back on it, they were probably scissoring in the room next to mine every night. so fucked up.
oh by the way, are you full on 'i want penis in my asshole' gay, or just kind of 'ehhhh dicks are sort of hot but i dont know how gay i really am' gay? cause i know my cousin only came out when she was like early-mid 20s. dont do it until you know this is who you are. some people are bi-curious, and it ends up being a phase. and you know its going to be a little weird/rough on your family, so don't break something like that out unless you know it's who you are, without any reasonable doubt.