Yeah, I remember way back when we would all make plans for the weekends and I'd get super stoked for it and then plans would change, all my friends would say that they aren't going to do anything that night but just stay home so it kind of bummed me out and then I'd find out on Mondays that they all went out and partied or whatever and all chilled together and then really got me rattled. To make matters worse they would tell me about and talk about how much fun they had like completely forgot that they ditched me. I'd usually just walk away and ignore them. Around the third time that happened it got me into the depression and I gave up hope on anything happening whether it was planned with friends or not.
I still hate the majority of those kids and that side of the funk never left me. Recently now one of my best friends keeps saying we're going to go to University party's every weekend (happened once already) and it will be super sick and then he would just go without telling me or wouldn't answer my texts asking what's going on and I'd find out he went. He also said last Friday that the party was "Gay x100, don't bother driving way down here." so I was like "Well want to go do something?" He never answered, later in the week I was talking to another buddy who ended up being there and said it was insane, one of the best parties and that I should've came.
Fuck, maybe I'm just a bitch and need to let go of stuff but I heavily really on friends when I need to vent or just some support when things aren't too shabby but yeah, I know how feel but I'm not too sure on the best approach to getting over it. All I needed was a couple friends to hang with on the odd day that I was close to and forgot everyone else. It also helps that I don't really see any of my other "friends" since I'm graduated just a select few.
