Post whats on your mind

girls are so confusing...

FUCKING TELL ME ABOUT IT. seriously tho. Why cant they just make up their fucking mind.

lolololol at how many times this has been posted in here

SO ARE BOYS! My mind has been completely gangbanged this month. So hard. Both holes.

what is a boy doing that is confusing you. I bet we can figure this out quickly since we are not confusing, its usually the girl who decides to twist our intentions to make it seem confusing. Or you just have an outlier.

If your work doesn't stand up to how you critique then

fucking this. every.time.

hope i can get this 4runner

amen. ladies are all into subtleties and dudes are into being blunt and getting their point across. We miss their subtleties and they read too far into what we say, and we end up with massive misunderstandings.

Sometimes dudes are just assholes tho and fuck girls over. That is confusing for anyone.

The outlier.

yeah no shit, everyone does this. you aren't that weird. but good read nonetheless. this is why i like this thread

@big sity

you arent that weird sounds to me like you need to surround yourself with better people. do you hang with people that are jerks often?

I do a lot of this. Over analyzing and over thinking everythning to the point of always being sad about something. I do this thing where before I get happy or hopeful or relaxed I analyze everything in my life and see if I have something I should be worrying or bothered about and then try to fix it and if I can't I just think about it constantly. Also the other day I started freaking the fuck out because when I was driving I felt this pull to just swerve in the other lane when a car was coming at me. To the point where I had to pull over because I thought the next one coming I would do it. i also do the brick thing and if I step on a crack or a line between tiles I have to step on another with the other foot otherwise I get this weird feeling like I am off balance. Also when I drive most of the time every time I pass a power pole or some recurring thing like that I flex a certain muscle like in my leg. Are you intelligent? I mean like are you a good critical thinker and have a high IQ? Just curious.

But you're sexy

its my birthday!!!! woooo time for ma birthday blunt woot woot

i have felt this way for a long time. do you feel like you ask for a lot of favors but dont get much in return? like you have given a lot of good karma but havent been much of a recipient? sometimes you just have to be assertive. the majority of people will may be bothered by given orders at first, but will forget about it less than 5 seconds later. you dont have to be a jerk, but giving orders can be fun once you get the hang of it. how are you gonna be a boss of a company or somebody's dad if you feel obligated to give orders? im no psychiatrist but ive been around and seen a lot and been through a lot of shit in my life.



posting this because its relevant, not to be funny.


okay its funny too.

Damn buddy, it's amazing how similar we are.

I for some reason for the last few years have got to thinking and I always come to bullshit conclusions that I'm so much different from other people my age. That I'm special and for some reason I should be better recognized when in reality I mean absolutely nothing.

Just about every single time I'm alone, unless something great has happened to me, I get very depressed. Any non-school night when there's nothing to do, or something is going on and I'm home, I just feel awful. If I missed a party, or anything like that, I get the feeling of being "left out" which makes me extremely depressed. For example, just today I was hanging out with Jared and Richie, and at one point Richie referred to "the boys" as him, Jared, and Noah. No Zinter. For some reason I am now merely an extra, when at one point it was us four, and even before that I recall Jared specifically saying "no richie allowed" when we hung out. This for some reason ruined my day. It shouldn't have.

It's because I have a terrible self esteem. I used to be able to speak publicly without a problem. Now, even though I don't feel nervous, I'll get up there and start shaking and come across all goofy. I think it's because I feel the need to be accepted.

I could just about quote what you said about mentioning things you've done. I always want to tell people this shit they won't care about, but I usually don't because I don't want to look like I'm trying to be cool or something.

Regrets, I've had a few. But not in the last 5 years or so. I haven't been able to feel any real remorse for such a long time that I've almost forgotten what it feels like. Obviously sometimes I can feel guilty about something, but not to a great extent and not for long.

I've always had thoughts about the edge of ending my life. Saying little things to myself like, "if I can't do this simple thing, I'll end it here."  "If the dice doesn't roll a 4, I'll do this." Of course I don't do it, but for some reason I always test myself to see what it would be like to be at that brink. It's really fucked up.

I do the sidewalk thing. I over analyze social things which would seem simple to the average guy.

We are not the average guy though. You more so than I, but I feel there is a direct correlation to intelligence with how we think about things. We look too deeply. Our emotions can't handle it. We get depressed. It's amazing you brought this up, because I spend a lot of time thinking about this stuff. Thinking about thinking. It gets really fucky.

 We are weird. Or maybe everyone is this way but they haven't analyzed it. I don't know. What I do know is we are different. We are thinkers. It has troubled me plenty, and it does all the time. It may not look like it, but I have no self esteem. I have also gained some form of superiority complex from it. I feel better than the majority of people. Exceptions to this include my cousin Mike, and you.

From hanging out with you, you have surprised me a lot. I didn't expect it, but you and I seem to think the same way about a lot of stuff. Or at least the way I perceive it. I don't know about you.

There's so much other shit but I didn't want to write a book and I wanted to keep it generally based off of what you posted.

Well fuck, posting that just made me feel great.

You sounds like me. Like exactly. All the shit you said resonates with me and I hate saying it or like bragging about it and shit but I have a very high IQ and am pretty fucking intelligent I guess. You know what they say, "ignorance is bliss," so maybe we just see how fucked up the world is and it gets us down. Me at least.

Mid term test

Holy fuck I don't know either of you guys but fuck me man I thought I was the only one who ever thought or did any shit like this and it literally sounds like me typing what both of you guys are saying.

I hate hate hate getting left out of shit. Especially because my parents are really strict and sheltering and never let me go out and shit with my friends so then they just sort of forget about me and when I'm sitting at home reading statuses from my best friends talking about how much fun they had and shit I get so bummed out I start crying sometimes.

And the remorse thing is the same for me. Lying to people close to me comes so easily it is scary. Maybe it's because I'm generally smart enough to get away with it I don't feel any remorse at all when I lie to my girlfriend or my parents and I hate that about myself.

And I like what you said. "We are thinkers." you fucking nailed it. I think, all the time. About everything. Thoughts just fucking spin and spin in my head at a million miles an hour all fucking day. Then I found weed when I was 13 and fell into a fucking weed coma where I was stoned 24/7 all I did every day all day was smoke weed because when I'm stoned my thoughts slow down to a manageable pace and I don't think about how fucked up everything and everyone is including myself. Sorry for the book but this is shit that I keep bottled up in my head and think about constantly but never share with anyone so it's really cool to see people thinking the same stuff.

Forgot to say I just came out of that "weed coma" about 3 or 4 months ago and only smoke on occasion like once or twice a month now because of family and gf issues.

Yep, not going to bother about writing up all my feelings about this because you 3 pretty summed it all up for me.

I thought I was the only one as well! Man its eerie how similar we all are, anyone feeling a weirdos of ns cult?

why thank you kind sir

That's a fucking relief. Sometimes I hang out with my friends and just vent on things semi-related to this and they just sit there saying nothing and when I'm done they're just like, "Let's go get some food." Or some shit as if they've completely ignored everything I had just said and again I feel out of place and even more depressed than before.

sometimes the people you care about most disappoint you and let you down..... i thought he was different

It is also my birthday as well. And I got some homies coming over to smoke me out. Happy birthday to you as well?

Yeah, I have deep conversations but not emotional, it's more about our existence and all that outer space stuff.

holy fuck this is me so much. whenever i'm alone i always seem to think everything is shitty. and i am so lucky compared to some people. i live a very, very easy and comfortable life and yet i find myself getting so worked up about little things like girls and friends and shit that really doesn't matter. ever since i was about 14 i've been quite, as i say, "realistic" but everyone says i'm negative. i really want to get out of that mindset

See, that's all I need, just one friend that is that open back. And I added you.

I just opened NS and this thread and the link was there so I was like fuck it.

BUT WE'RE NOT WEIRDOS IT'S JUST TRUTH

Dude weed just speeds my mental processes up even more. My parents are very controlling like you said, so I am just constantly being paranoid about that, and moreso I will just be sitting back constantly analyzing peoples actions and things they say all the time in a negative and cynical way. It used to not be like that, but now I dont even smoke because It was effecting me so negatively. I just get these terrible thoughts about peoples motivation and about why I do the things i do, etc. and it makes me real depressed and I feel like the insecure 7th grader i was so long ago. My normal self has developed coping mechanisms but weed just destroys those and i become irrationally depressed and anxious. like anxious to the point where I will be sitting on a couch with somebody and they can feel my heart racing. like anxious to the point where I cannot control my breathing properly.

got 69th in my last ever highschool XC race, now thats what I call winning

Furksing hate the iclicker used in my bio class... They can hide well, now I can't take a quiz

FUCK ICLICKER. I hated that shit when I was in college. So damn annoying.

Why does my sister look like the milk man?

insert joke about milk and titties here

i can't finf it so here i sm

I suck at ordering stuff online. I always order the wrong size or ship it to the wrong adress. I need to learn to take my time and double check orders haha

why need there be homework when there's all this internet to enjoy?

birthday twin!!! happy birthday!

Wow. You, sitty, and Zimmerman just explained my life. Minus the weed and suicidal thoughts.

I think overanalyzing is an only-child trait. I'm also an only-child and I over-analyze far too much haha

Glad someone else is with me on this one! You ever get the "Spoiled Child" taunts at school because of the only-child situation? I get it all the time. I always just wanna say "Fuck you! I don't have anyone to split the chores with bitch!" lol And why would I work everyday if I was already spoiled? I don't know why Im writing this, but this thread is probably the right place.. It's what's on my mind.

thankd you make my night fir ne

That studying is terrible and i still have to do it for the next 2/3 weeks

yor lucjy 2/3 of a week is only like 5 days