Aright im probably gonna get hated on for this but at the moment i dont really give a fuck. not a single fuck.
Today my uncle got taken of his chemo therapy because theres no long a point to keep him on it. Hes dying. He chain smoked a good portion of his life and now hes not the only one paying the consequences. Hes the only blood relative i have in america besides my dad mom and sister (my parents and him are from poland). When he was younger he rock climbed, traveled the world, skied, backpacked and now hes stuck in a fucking bed. Today i had my father come to me in tears telling me that hes getting taken off the chemo. I dont even know what to do with myself either. My uncle doesnt speak much english at all, doctors cant even tell him whats happening to him, and he has no way of communicating with them. And honestly im crying as i type this because i know hes laying in a hospital bed, suffering, and hes going to suffer up until the second he dies.
I know that deep down if you smoke, this probably wont stop you from lighting up again, but im hoping that maybe the thought of your loved ones crying for you, because they know how much youre suffering. and because they know their going to lose someone they love will impact you in some way.
fuck cancer.