Replying to To the older members of NS.

Looking for other college kids, grads, anyone with experience in what I'm dealing with.

A little about me. 20 years old and finishing my 2nd year of community college. Right out of high school in 09' I began fucking with opiates. Hydros recreationally led to using them daily...which then by the end of 09 led to dipping into oxycontin. It happened fast, and it prolonged for close to a year.

Fast forward to last september 16th 2010...I started an outpatient program with the help of friends, family, and every1 in between I am still clean to this day. It's exciting to know how far I've come and I don't ever plan to look back. First step, taken care of.

Now here I am 6 months about to be going on 7 months clean from opiates, still going to school and have grown up a ton... But have found myself REALLY lost these past few months.

I graduated with a good gpa, got accepted fucking everywhere, and my dumbass drug induced decisions led me to stay in my hometown and go to cummunity college (which isn't a bad choice for some) because I thought at the time, that I had everything I needed. Why change it?

I have a damn good family, friends, all the support you could ask for, but I still can't get out of this slump my mind's been in these past few months.

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MY MAIN QUESTION TO YOU NS, or the ones whom have some experience with this...how the fuck did you guy's "find yourself"?

I constantly am reminded of my past here and the idea of staying here and continuing community college seems so wrong for me as I'm not living up to my potential.

I think I truely need this spring semester off to do something NEW. Find out who the fuck I am because all I can remember is the idiot I turned into these past couple years.

If you've read this far and can give me some insight? +k. I'm not the type to vent what so ever... but I know there are some good people on this site who've been through similar shit.

Least I still got my trees and skiing. :/