that girl is mad cute. how can anyone possibly hate on her?
but at the same time, takes a fucked up person to think they can resolve an issue by cutting themselves rather that just dealing with it internally and walking tall. that's just a part of being a kid. the big kids naturally feel like they can push people around and act tough, the good looking jocks flaunt their shit and act like a-holes cause they know that they will still get the girl at the end of the day, etc etc. i dont even want to get into the psychological warfare girls engage in amongst each other.. but anyway, when people hit their 20s and grow the fuck up, life isn't really like that anymore. everyone is more accepting and just does their own thing, not worrying about others.
my advice to you, if you're dealing with these kind of issues is to just persevere. life's better when people grow up and maturity kicks in. when youre young, people need to put others down to feel good about themselves. to feel superior. when youre older, it's more about tackling the real world and all of that selfish, arrogant shit just goes away. so people are generally better to each other, compounded with the fact that all of your little self-esteem issues that you think are a big fucking deal when youre young fade as well, life's just a happier time.
i was always bullied for being the nice kid. i was an easy target. my friends used to give me wedgies and laugh amongst themselves, or spill my books all over the hallway, knowing i'd only ever been like 'awww fuck guys' and just deal with it. course if i could go back i'd want to be a little tougher and stand up for myself, but thats not just how i am. i'd rather say fuck it, youre an idiot, im not even gonna bother with you, than get all confrontational and cause some shit. plus, my friends knew they were being dicks, and that was enough. not to mention, i was a lanky ass kid with stupid gelled hair and a zitty face. not that that's any grounds for hate, but i'm just sort of painting a picture of myself as a bit of a dork.
now look at me. im a fucking stud. haaaa, well maybe ashley will 'like that comment' but im doin aiight for myself and life's good. friend's are good, girls are great, and i cant even really remember what my early highschool days were like. im sure there were times where i felt all emo and depressed n shit, but it just aint worth it to hurt yourself or act like things can't possibly get better, because they will. ive lived it.
whoever you are, i hope this message finds you and finds you well. i know people often say 'the grass is always greener on the other side' but just dont get stuck in the funk of being an adolescent. it's a weird time for everyone. im 25. trust me. all the 'weird kids' or 'sluts' or 'nerds' in highschool are out doing wicked things and are judged more by the content of their character than superficially. hang in there, find a happy place, surround yourself with things that you find some enjoyment in, and be optimistic.
even though i do not know you, with all my heart i love you
