Replying to Please Help Me

Last night, I was playing in a hockey game, pretty typical, not much of a surprise for me. I was along the boards skating with the puck and a player on the other team comes up and tries to hit me, almost football style, headfirst and shoulder to hip. I stopped on a dime and the kid hit the boards, headfirst, and broke his neck. I feel like it's all my fault. If I just took the hit, the kid would have been ok, and me most likely just shaken it off and kept on playing. I had a nightmare about it last night and am just feel like I'm going insane. I ruined that kids life all for the sake of keeping the puck. Please NS, this is totally serious. I am going to drive out to Pittsburgh to see the kid in the hospital, and I hope to god the kid's family doesn't sue us.