Girl friend rant

It's a rant. If you don't want to read it then you don't have to.

Meet a girl about 6 months ago at a party at my friend's. Didn't really talk to her much because i was pretty stoned and new I'd just fuck it up by asking her about trees or something. She gets my number off my friend and starts texting me. Next party I go to with her we hook up and then I ask her out the next day.

We date for 5 months and she calls me one day. She says she thinks we should break and aren't really meant for each other. During this 5 month period she kissed another guy, yelled at me for having a body shot taken off me while passed out drunk and for "flirting" with another girl.

The day after we break up I go over to hang out since we say we'll still be friends. We have sex and then she tells me how she doesn't know what to do. Why are we broken up? All this stuff. I say that for now we would stay broken up but in an open relationships. We can go see other people and still be together then change it from there in a bit.

2 days after this she goes to a party and gets laid by one of her co-workers. She tells me the next day and I'm like whatever. No biggie, we agreed on it.

This was all on a Thursday. Thursday night I get into an argument with my Dad and he kicks me out and says to come back Sunday. I leave and go to my best friends house. We party all weekend, I flirt with girls but don't actually go from there because I still have feelings for this girl.

I can honestly say she's the first girl friend I've ever loved and I always will no matter what, not in a creepy, stalker type way though.

So we talk again and she says that she wants me to move on and find someone new. I say okay. I never actually do anything again though.

Today I ask her what she's doing for lunch. She says she's going with her friend. I say its fine I was going to go chill with my friend anyways. She then out of nowhere says, so you're friend told me some stuff last night. Turns out my friend told her that I wasn't too upset about the break up and didn't care what she did. He tried to add in the I missed her and that I still loved her but she stopped talking to him.

I tell her that I've tried to move on but don't feel like it yet. I can't move on when she tells me but I'm not going to try and get her back. I say I love her and always will no matter what, always want to be friends, blah blah blah.

She says "move on already. stop waiting for me. i want to move on and if you don't then I can't."

I said back to do what she wanted. I could careless if she moves on or not and she should do the same. I finally feel some relief. I'm just going to keep on truckin', something good will happen.