Replying to I need some sort of motivation

Well, this has been something obvious about myself. I am lazy as fuck. i have no push. no need to do better. so i need something that will motivate me, something that will push me.

heres the deal. im smart, but i dont apply myself (im sure you've all heard this before). i got like 3.5's or 4.0s these last two quarters in every class, but its inconsistant, and i do the least amount of work and studying that i possibly can. If i studied and really tried, i could be getting straight 4.0s (i mean anyone could, but i actually have the chance to).
Finals are here and i keep telling myself, "you went through an entire school year and now you have a couple days of finals. Finish off this year and make the the time spent, this entire school year, worth it. why fuck it up now? just strap down and study hardcore for 3 days and get it done with, whats 3 days anyway? just do it." and it sounds right in my head, but when i go to actually study, i sitll procrastinate and shit and dont get it done.

Also, with sports. i am very athletic. I am a good football player, but i hate practices and all that shit. I also love lacrosse, everything about it, and i plan on getting recruited to the D3 level. But i dont do shit for these sports. i know i should run, i know i should be lifting, but i cant do it. i cant go out and run everyday. im really impatient which doesnt help. i also go to the weight room and stand around and talk to people and occasionally lift. I guess i want instand results that i obviously wont get... i need something to motivate and push me... but i cant figure it out

my brothers actaully pissed at me, he loved football and thinks lacrosse is a great sport and he knows my potential, but he hates to see me sitting around not doing shit when i could be working out or running. it kills him because he had the push but he didnt have my natural talent (not trying to claim, i promise).

so where do i get this push? you know how people do things for a lost loved one or for their handicapped sibling, but i dont have that. i need something to work for. suprisingly, trying to get recruited is not giving me the push that i would expect. i need something, i need someone to like murder my cat, you know what i mean? i need something. anyone got ideas? dont give me hate for this thread either. i know im being a bitch and need to just get out there and do it, but its easier said than done