Replying to Im in an assload of trouble

alright so today our school had a special meeting because we have a major problem at our school with racism. now the day before the meeting we met with our advisor group and we had to think up of "Hurtful words" so we got a good list of them.

so im sitting amongst my whole upper school (about 250 people) and up on the stage there is this big board covered by a tablecloth. we have no idea what it is. now some of you know that my school is full of self rightous rich kids who are also incredibaly racist. They will point out anything thats different about you. I for example: im reffered to as cripple kid because i have a wrist that i broke skiing.

so we're all seated and our principle comes up, takes a chair, sits and gets all serious. after shes done talking she gets up and pulls down the tablecloth and lo and behold, on a hugeass peice of paper is a list of all of the insults you could possibly think of. words like spik, faggot, retard and other assorted spiceyness.

i burst out laughing

i then get a look from about 250 people like "what the fuck is your problem" i cover my mouth and stupidly say "excuse me". now let me explain. when i get nervous i laugh. i know its horrible and if theres one thing i could change it would be how i react to uncomfortable or nervous stuff. My parents know about this and its why i never go to funerals.

then the shit really hits the fan.

they ask the people who have ever been called something on the board to stand up and say how it makes you feel. the nicest girl in our whole grade, the only one who isnt a spolied, bitchy wannabe slut stands up and bursts into tears. she says about how shes called the N word. (shes african american) then asks the whole school why they call her that word. I have never said anything racist to anyones face. i feel like the biggest dick in the world

after the meetiing and for the rest of the day people were silent, sad and overall head hanging. at my last class of the day i get a call saying that my "presence is required in the office"

i go down and i am immediately attacked by the principle. she starts raving about how horrible it was of me and how many feelings i hurt. She gave me a chance to say that i laugh when i get uncomfortable. they werent buying it. She told me that they would continue the "Coversation" on monday. i now have the weekend to think about what will happen to me. i honestly i never felt like so much a douchebag in my entire life.

laugh away NS i thought you might get a kick out of it.