Replying to I should be dead

Not that anyone cares but a lot of shit has happened to me lately. I spent two weeks in colorado (i live in ma) and it was the two best weeks of my life. My girl friend lives in denver and I waited 3months to see her and it was worth it. So now im home and misserable and have to wait 6months+ before I see her again. The day after I got back I decided to go driving on a scetchy unlit road with my friend in seperate cars. It was night and we were driving fast as usual and i decided to pass him going "85+++" because I didnt care about taking risks at the time (i was mad to be home and away from my gf) I cant remember much but apparantley there was a hill that i didnt notice and a truck was at the bottom of it. So im next to my friend when i see lights coming towards me and I vear off the side of the road. I was on a mountain and on the side of the road was all heavily wooded. My friend thought I was dead but i finally came out the car holding my head which i dont remember. I got a concusion and he took me home (the guy in the truck stopped but just left after asking if we were drunk). I went to the hospital where they found me to be fine besides a few scratches (over 2000 dollar bill for them to tell me that im fine). A cop came into the hospital with my ticket and said that i should be dead. This one spot that i hit was a short rock wall that took the impact. If i hit a tree i would have died since the tree would have taken all the impact and cut the car inhalf. After hitting the rocks he said my car flipped and flew 15feet in the air, did a 180 and hit a tree (15feet in the air). He said he measured a 125foot skid mark one way and 100foot the other way which is bull shit because there were no skid marks because i just went off the road and it was obvious what had happened when I checked it out the next day. So 100$ for crossing the line even though i started on split lines and 400$ for going "85+++" in a 45. He said if he put 90 it would be an illegal offense. If I were going that fast i would be dead, even my dad thinks that its complete bull shit since the cop figured all this out in pitch dark. So its been a few weeks since all that and ive calmed down, 3000$car totalled(nothing left of it that has any value) 500$ticket. The cop said he wasnt taking away my license. Yesterday i get a letter in the mail from the registration of motor vehicales saying my license is suspended for 90days AND i have to pay ANOTHER 500$ to reinstate it..i finally payed off the ticket after working extra hours at my boring job and now they are taking more money for me. I know im lucky to be alive but im screwed, im not going to drive untill im out of college because my parents wont let me and I have to go to classes for being an aggressive driver and all this other shit. If it were winter skiing would solve everything but its summer so instead I have to bitch about all my problems on newschoolers so yeaa..