Replying to So my life sucks

Seriously i am pretty miserable. Over the past year my family situation has gotten so bad. I am not making the best choices and giving up so much for this one guy which i know i shouldn't do but he means a lot to me and i dont want to lose him. We fight constantly and always make up but some hurt always lingers but it hurts more when we are apart. But in giving up things for him, my parents are getting pissed. My dad and i have no relationship all he does is yell. Hes rarely around because he works so much and yells at me for everything granted i havent been the best daughter but my parents are hard asses. They tell me to grow up and never give me the chance. I honestly want my father out of my life. My mom tries to make things better but shes terrible at it. All they do is bitch about me and how i am ruining ym life and how the real world will crash down on me. They dont get that instead of spending so called "family time" i would rather be alone or out doing my own thing. I want to fix some of this but i really have no motivation and i end up getting shitted on and yeah im a girl we're emotional as fuck sometimes but i am really miserable and not sure how to fix it. This boy is one of the few people i have to turn to and i dont think i can afford to give that up.