What now.

So i was supposed to head out to a friends place last night for a bit of drinkin, on the way to work my truck breaks down. That was fine, i was having trouble with it and taking it to the garage sometime anyway, but don't have the money, going to be doing that sooner i guess. So i borrow my mom's car so i can get to work then out to line 11 after. Everything is fine i pick up some ppl and im heading out, going a way i hadn't gone before. I end up taking hwy 12 to horeshoe valley rd. and make a left on line 12. I guess i missed the sign that said no exit. I start headin down that way, thinkin im going to connect to old barrie rd. and im comin up this hill doing 50 ish (km) and i see all white so i ask the ppl in the car is it just me or is the road changing, cause there were no reflective signs at all, none, and the road was white itself, not maintained much in the winter. i get to the top of the hill and see it is a big snow bank and behing that a steep hill, there is a long driveway to my left so i turn for it. i must have came off the raod and been on the shoulder cause the snow was deep and i wasnt turning. Seperating the road from this driveway is a fence, infront of the fence is a rock. That i fucking nailed. I could do nothing to turn my wheel, i had slid off the road and was in 6 inches of non plowed shoulder and had no control. passanger side hit it head on and bumped up over the rock. air bags deployed, and car slammed into another bank of snow.
I had damaged the engine and it was making a lot of noise so i shut it off. Basically broke the frame on the right side of the car and the fron axel and the engine is now 'compact' damage at over 5000 not including repacking the air bags..car is totalled. I managed to total my mom's car, when i own my own truck. On her birthday of all days..now she has no way to work for atleast a lil bit, but she bikes there anyway. i have no way to work, ill never be able to pay my insurance now, it was already going up cause in january i was convicted of failing to stop for a stop sign costing me 3 demerit points, now this. and even if i could still pay it, i have no way to get to work to pay for it. Just rambling now and im sorry, nothing is working out for me lately, school, relationship, nothing. If you actualy read this far, thank you for hearing me out, if not, can't blame you. And to make things worse when the police phoned my house today and when they went to look at the car at the garage, the officer said he could smell alcohol on one of us. same with the town truck driver, and the tow truck driver found a mickey in the trunk, that i had left there from weeks before..and forgot.