story time!!
so i'm 20, right. a little older than the average newschooler i suppose. most of the time, i have no problem dealing with a younger crowd because, well, quite frankly, some of you dudes are pretty dope. but the counterside of being above the age median is that along with younger guys comes younger girls. i'll get to my point in a sec.. we see lots of pictures of guys and girls alike going up in their respective sections everyday. the only problem is, since so many ski chicks seem to be babes, this developes bad habits for people like myself. i wasn't sure if any of this were true in the beginning (being attracted to the youngins? forget that) but today i discovered the undeniable truth.
i was standing at ikea today with a few buddies eating cheap hotdogs for a late evening snack, when i realized how far this has gone and that i somehow have to put an end to it. TWICE, i found myself checking out 'staring at the heiny' girls that couldn't be any older than 14. and the shitty thing is, i don't even realize i'm doing it, until someone calls me out on it. i'm starting to sicken myself. the reason this scares me, is because i seem to be a little girl magnet. i have a couple little sisters, and all their friends are in love with me (not to blow my own horn or anything) and its scary!! what the hell's going to happen on the day i realize i want one of them. jesus christ, i've created a monster!
sometimes i disgust myself. i'm going to hell, aren't i...