Replying to Why I am NOT going to compete

So i came to a conclusion tonight. for those of you who know me, im a snow-obsessed freak just like the rest of you, but tonight i realized something. i wasnt skiing for myself. last year it was all about the competitions, getting sponsored, etc. until i got hurt. for those of you who havent had a huge injury, they change your whole attitude. you gain a respect for the mountain and your body you never knew. learning to walk again is such a wake up call to how weak you really are. Your first day on snow, ITS A JOKE. you have a fear that anything could trigger these same emotions you have had for the past year all over again. and then you wake up. you realize you dont want it to happen again, and that skiing isnt about competing, having a status: especially for girls that because you are one of the few out there doing this that guys worship you, and it isnt about sponsorships. you wake up and realize its not about that. its about you.

*brooke*

'I hope life isn't a big joke, because I don't get it.'