Replying to Crazy Bad Trip!

So I had this trip the other night...
I was stuck in my mind, and so was everyone else. I kept thinking about things and I figured that I wasn't really experiencing what was happening, but rather plugged into it, kinda like the matrix, but alot different at the same time... More like a video game in which we were all participants.
Anyways, I figured that in your mind, you could move back and forth through time, either forwards or backwards, but not at a pace other than real time. So you couldn't jump years ahead, or even days, only reverse the flow of time.
I kept trying to go backwards through time, but it was like the 'game' I was in didn't like it and it always wanted me to go forward, not backward. That was when I got stuck in this time circle.
I was playing poker and I kept getting the cards I was just dealt, only I wasn't really, I just had this insane feeling of deja vu, like I knew exactly what was going to pop up, but only more like a premonition that it had happened last week or something, so I couldnt remember perfectly, only fairly accurately. I finally gave up going backwards in time, because it was fucking with my mind, and I went ahead with normal time. But I knew exactly when I would lose or win, so I kept going all in when I knew I would win and I DID win everytime. And not just pairs or whatever, but it was always on the river and always a straight or flush or something big.
Finally I got so freaked out that I had to lose on purpose and fold when I knew I would win.
Then I had this premonition that if I would go home before 11pm I would kill myself! I was so freaked out by this feeling because I was right about the poker every hand. And I felt like because you could go back in time, I had to stop going forward so I wouldnt end up killing myself, however it would happen. And my friends knew I would kill myself so they kept revrsing the time-flow too. It was FUCKED UP!