Replying to So i beat myself up in my sleep, for the 2nd time

So this is a weird thing to type, let me start by saying im not a freak or skitzo or anything lol, so dont look at a sick-as-aids post and be like, that dudes a fuckbagging skitzo!

sso yeah last night whilst very very drunk (i rote a thread before bed, you can see how drunk i was by reading that) i kicked the shit out of myself.... i was lying in bed just punching myself in the face for like 10 minutes, while im doing it im like wtf am i doing this is realy fucked up, but my hand just keeps kicking my arse...iv done it once befor when i was again really drunk, my mates were in the room at the same time and said i was like uncontrollable, and they couldnt stop me, they said i was asleep but my eyes were open, but i remember doing it.... its fucked up right? this morning my face is pretty bruised and fucking sore lol, the other time i gave myself 2 black eyes, i have no idea why i do it, im stoked on life, skiing, my mates and my current surroundings, im just a stoked dude whose always chilled and happy, so why am i doing this!!!!!???

help?