I got back today.... it was the most fucked up miserable 8 days of my whole life. Sure its easy to look back on it now warm inside my dorm as a 'good experience' but when it was happeneing i made myself promise I wouldn't forget the pain.
We hiked a total of like 25 miles with 40-60 pound packs and snowshoes at an average of about 1 mph. Every step was tourture something always fucking hurting me so bad. Through deep snow, up mountains, over rivers. And the whole time all i could think of is this is so fucked up this is so fucked up. I got real minor frostnip but Im so happy to be back i cant even explain it. Im probly in mad good shape now but Im not going outside for a long time except to ski. I woulda much rather gone to classes and write like 5 essays and study for 6 exams then ever do that again
this is the ditch where i spent my first misierable freezing my balls off night. I rolled off the pads into the snow like 5 times. was nothing compared to the second night..
next day we hiked like 5 miles with our godamn 60 pound packs i just did it 1 step at a time for hours. It hit me pretty hard going from smoking ganj and skiing everyday to this military death march
i spent the most miserable night of my entire life under that rock. i rolled off the ground tarp and so i woke up about 12am in the morning soking wet with the strongest winds ive ever seen blowing blizzard snow all over me. I was so cold i couldnt stop hyperventalating. my sleeping bag wasnt doing shit and this huge dead tree fell right over our heads and i could hear it creeking waiting to fall and crush my head. i had to piss so bad but I would of died if i got outta my bag so i had to hold it all night made it even worse. I dont care about being pussy or not I cried myself to sleep that night and the tears froze on my face right away. i just sat there dying for 6 hours waiting for the light to come
waking up was almost as bad as the night. putting on my boots that were filled with ice and froozen sucks so bad. Then we hiked down this steep ass mountain side with my huge heavy pack that kept making me flip over and eat shit down the mountain side.
sweet lets go across semi frozen rivers with 50 pound packs that is really safe. it started cracking when i was going across it i freaked out and sprinted for the shore and dove into this thorn bush and got all cut up
trying to go down shit like this is death with snow shoes. I ate it so many times im supresd no one got seriously hurt
my friend was loosing it to. I spent like 3 hours making a sick shelter but the snow blew in anyways and i was cold as fuck anyways
this was the coldest day ive ever been outisde. it was legit -20 without windchill and the winds were crazy strong so it was around -40. It makes you so miserable i cant even explain it. Cold like that eats away at you and makes you feel like nothing. i just wanted to lie down and die its not like you can just go inside and get warm. I started to loose it around this time and just walked in circles around this tree muttering stuff trying to not get frostbite. The instructur had to calm me down
the hiking never ended. this asian kid was so funny he was about to hanghimself im serious he was even more fucked then me. He is a heavy cig smoker so every step in our death march was even worse for him.
then they dropped me of in the middle of the woods alone. Of course i lost both the fucking games to see who gets the green shelter tarps and the 3 shovels. So all i had was a piece of plastic and some string. I made a pretty ill shelter though and went in at 3pm and didnt come out until 7 the next day. I fishbowled my sleeping bag and the whole tent. It was so funny the teacher came to check on me right before it got dark and i was in my sleeping back and he knocks on the tent and i unzip it and a huge cloud of weed smoke comes up. haha he knew what was up but didnt say anything
so yea it probly made me 'stronger' or whatever but I will never do anything like that again. ever. Trying to take a dump in -40 degrees with wind blowing is something i dont want to ever experienec again. i hate the cold and the woods and the snow so much now. Im gona take my first shower in 8 days and spark this time being able to feel my hands